So.
This was originally going to be a big long deconstruction what is happening with Elise and I.
But Sammy called me tonight.
Drunk.
Crying.
Scared.
Alone.
I made her a promise I would be there if she needed me. So I was.
I went over there. Saw her new apartment. Saw all those things that used to make up half my home.
She still hasn't stopped running. She ( Read more... )

What a fucking weird conversation.
First off, it still amuses me how I end up being right about things 99% of the time.
Calvin, everything he was to you, everything he stood for, destined for failure. That is NOT how you start a relationship.
I hate to say I told you so but...
Then after that... the things you say still amaze me.
I asked you to tell me ( Read more... )

In friendship we are able to hear honest, critical feedback. We trust that a true friend desires our good.

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Committed love relationships are far more likely to become codependent when we cut off all our ties with friends to give these bonds we consider primary our exclusive attention.

The more genuine our romantic loves the more we do not feel ( Read more... )

"you cant text her and get the golden answer that will make you feel better. Find a reason for tomorrow to come without her. She has found a reason for it to come without you. It might not even be clear to her, and it might not even be a good one. but... the lines keep darting through space ( Read more... )

Thank you, Universe.
Its always good to remember I'm not alone.

I miss the companionship. Like Kyle said when he was here ( Read more... )

I am not anger
I am not bitterness
I am not jealousy
I am not fear
I am not regret
I. Am. Love.

"I was so comfortable with our life. I loved being able to go out, do whatever, and know that you were at home, waiting,  supporting me. I hate that I realized we weren't going to progress any further.  I hate even more that working through the superficial issues of our relationship exposed the one problem that shattered us. You were my foundation ( Read more... )

I miss you
I can't will it away
Going out into the world, living these distractions, this is supposed to make it better.
Everything reminds me of you, and I feel that lack. Every victory is less without you here.
No amount of justification, of deconstruction, of judgements and understanding,
Nothing makes this lack disappear.
I still have a hole in my ( Read more... )

You miss me?
Too Little
Too Late