there are a lot of things i need to say, to a lot of people.

that would require explaining myself though.

i'm not so good at that.

but one day i will.

... i'm happy!

(i know, right? hahaha)

last valentine's day, i was sitting in my room, alone, eating the popcorn factory stuff that my mom sent to me, being sad over a stupid boy ( Read more... )

it's pathetic that i hold on to the tiniest of things.

1 year.

please please please, for god's sake, let someone please finally see past my nervousness and just let me in. please. please.

rush is almost over, "just" organizing, cleaning, and scoring tonight, but just so you know, i had to redecorate my room to make it special for house tour round, and i taped amazing pictures of my favorite lakers on my walls by my bed, and it was just really nice to have you there during this hell of a week. i miss you.

i got into a car crash tonight, completely the other kid's fault because he rear-ended me in a car that apparently has no breaks, hit my head on the steering wheel, no parents around to help, right in the middle of rush, with no time to fix any of it. now there's just such a headache.

it's just really good, and it's been stuck in my head.

she lifts her skirt up to her knees,
walks through the corn-rows with her bare feet, laughing.i never learned to count my blessings ( Read more... )

since the night before i left for chicago ( Read more... )