I have mood swings like a motherfucker ( Read more... )

Home. Even though i'm home alone, I'm still home. I adore you, Drew, Stephen. Thanks for everything you've kind of let me be while I was invading Drew's home. Thanks, Andy, for straightening me out, when I had no idea where I was going. Somehow I'm going to work this whole selfishness out, and start all over again, from scratch. LA wasn't as ( Read more... )

The best way of explaining last night is to not give a very good explanation, because I don't have one. All that really happened was that I went out and had a few drinks with some friends, and it got out of hand. I don't remember much after about 12:30 or so, but I do remember banging on Andy's door. I ran around to the back to throw rocks at his ( Read more... )

Someone told me to go and download the song True Love Waits by Radiohead.
( lyrics )

I've been sort of dormant lately. Getting hugs like crazy from Drew, and just kind of hiding under blankets she's donated. I dont really feel like leaving this house, but I now I should go back sometime because I dont feel like a very good guest. I dont interact as much as I should with my hostess, I dont feel in tune with many of my friends, I ( Read more... )

Today I laid out in the sun, on the beach by myself staring at the sun until i felt a bit blinded, and then I'd close my eyes and feel the soft wind blow through my hair. I kept thinking about how I feel like a burden on people, and how I need to go out and get my own place, start a new life on my own and hide under my own desk for a while to just ( Read more... )

These days, I haven't really been myself. I've been hoarding Drew's food, and Andy's time. I'm sorry I feel like a showered vagrant, and I'm sorry that things have been kind of up and down for the last week or so. It's like it's that time of the month. I've been super-mister-moody-man. I wish I was good at something else. Like golf, or singing... ( Read more... )

You know i never realized how many people felt that Gerry was boring.
they just don't get it. It's part of the idea.

I'm supposed to be hanging out with adick tomorrow. He's flying in to LA tomorrow morning and we wanted to hang out at least once... I dont even know why he's coming, I'd just like the company.

I'd say in here that I'm leaving soon, but right now I feel like I have nowhere to go.

So um... yeah. Today is beach day, meet me there in an hour. I need to sit and think in my bathing suit for a while.