well... Mrs V said no to me moving in with them. I'm still not sure why, but I'll wait to ask when mandi has had some more time to digest everything. Maybe there is some conditions or something, like I could but not till january or something... who knows, could be anything at this point. If it is a permanant decision, I will have to make up my ( Read more... )

Well this coming weekend is the first of two frost valley weekends with the Human Svcs. class for sullivan. They aren't really telling us what to expect, but I can infer it'll be "get to know yourself" type stuff. I'll miss mandi so much, i love talking to her and to go 2 full days without it will be draining. She's my motivation, my happy ( Read more... )

well I made a visit to california and it was wonderful. the passion is still there, and we are both wonderful for the other. i miss living out there and living with mandi. we're starting to make plans for me to move out there, hopefully to rent a room with mandi's mom but that's still up in the air. mandi flies out here in a few weeks, and i'm ( Read more... )

Here are a few pictures of my own selection to add on my very first picture entry. Hope they're all ok, but here's a prevue just in case.


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~*~*~*Seriously, needed to vent, don't take seriously*~*~*~

I'm working at this so hard, dealing with so much. Every day she does more and more to show she doesn't give a rat's shit about how I feel or what I need. How the fuck is that love?

It kills me... after all the "you're being so wonderful about this", after putting my heart and soul on the line and giving the best advice I can without any personal gain whatsoever she's still annoyed with me. I'm handling this better than anyone could ever expect or even hope for, she's the love of my life telling me she's going out on a date ( Read more... )

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school is going alright, two days down and like 74 left. i've gotta switch a bio course, but not a big deal. Things with mandi are going well, barring a few hickups that will definately happen from time to time. I'm so crazy for her, what an ass I had been. Ugh, I'm going to have to stop dwelling on what I did and concintrate on what I can do ( Read more... )

Well, today is my official day back to class. I'm kinda excited, my brain loves the new information. I'm only working weekends at Kohl's so it'll pay bills and give time for homework. Things with mandi are still strained, but mostly in a good way. I'm more in love with her than I have ever been, more open with her than I thought I could ever be ( Read more... )

I'm trying to have understanding and compassion about a subject, it seems, has difficulty with that. She's very insecure about me watching movies with girls in them, the current example is "girl next door" which turns out to be just another pretty woman story, but way more applicable. She was very upset by that, but she's the one who will not ( Read more... )