hopefully my desire to move away will slowly become more of a reality with every week that goes by. I got the new job. Ill be making decent money. and once all my debt is paid off and im financially stable. and have finished school for being an RN...which is only 2 years long so that would work kind of perfectly and once that happens im really ( Read more... )

 I have to have 5 weeks of physical therapy to get full motion back in my knee. and then once I have full motion i have to have knee surgery. and then have 6 months on physical therapy. I tore my ACL running around my backyard. honestly. how pathetic is that? but on a good note i have a job interview tomorrow. 32 hours a week. 12 bucks an hour. i ( Read more... )

has something ever happened that changes your whole out look on life? every time I read a book and it really intense I always wonder what life would be like if this happened or this didnt happen. and the only thing im left with every time is just wanting to get away. always feeling like im trapped, I havent lived I know nothing about new ( Read more... )

soo..got the papers to get things filled out and started for nursing schoool. real excited for this. I feel like once i have a purpose for getting up every day, like something more than my dead end job that different aspects of my life will also change. like how i behave when im shitfaced for example. I just feel like once im doing something for ( Read more... )

changing things arounddd. looking into nursing school so i can actually do something with my life. although the worst is yet to come...license is being taken away due to bad driving, pretty sure everyone saw that one coming. haha. whatevs. i dont know why i said i barely even like rich i was just trying to make you all feel bad for me i guess, i do ( Read more... )

 im just fucking depressed. there is no way around this. i feel ugly and like no one wants anything to do with me. ive gained so much fucking weight its ridiculous. im a moody bitch and cant even be happy for my friends because it just makes me feel worse about my own life. i have nothing going for me at all. a shitty no end job. a shitty guy who i ( Read more... )

im trapped inside my house. and debt. i work nonstop just to pay off my mistakes. like tickets. credit cards. accidents. honestly with the amount i pay for bills a month i could be living by myself in boston. i just want to pay my stuff off so i can be living on my own somewhere. i need money more than a good time. so im trapped doing nothing at ( Read more... )

 I WANT TO MOVE. I want to move out of Mass so bad. I dont need a specific state or anything. just warm. and cheap. and ill be all set. I just want to be done paying debt off. I want to be done with all of it. I pay for a fucking car that i can half the year without. honestly this is bullshit. If i just gave my car up Id be all set. I need another ( Read more... )

I'm not the same person I used to be. But as much as I didnt like who I was then, I dont like the new me any more than the old.

honestly nothing makes me happy. no one makes me happy ( Read more... )