okay... time for a real update... life is better... life is normal... life's a bitch... so fuck it... sorry if that offended anyone... hmm... my thoughts are so out of my head right now... i am thinking about cherry and dusty and what they might do tomorrow... and i am thinking about stuart... and his dreams... and his feelings and how he wont tell ( Read more... )

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why can't life be simpler? why can't i just fly away? why can't i leave it all behind? why do i cry at night? why can't life just be easier? why can't i just stop loving you? why can't life just fade away? why can't i end it all now? why can't i hide these tears? why can't i just go away? why can't you be with me here? why do i have to cry for you ( Read more... )

How does someone not know what they do to forget?... i want to do something... i need to do something... ... stuart's profile said "you wanna know who she is... *sigh* its you cass "... but i dont believe that... cus that is not what kyle said... (that is all in reference to who the girl who makes him happy is... i don't believe it cus kyle said ( Read more... )

Trey is dead... life is now... i guess over... he was the love of my life... but not the kind of love where we wanted to get married or anything... just best of pals... close buds... ... and now he is gone... he killed himself yesterday... so i am just a little off my block right now... if i seem depressed it is because i probably am... but we don' ( Read more... )

I Am ( Read more... )

hmm... stuart seems so... i dont know... different... but he says he is going back to how he really is... and i dont know how to talk to people online anymore... i am like losing my ability of gab... and it sucks... whatelse... i found bruises on my arms and it took me like an hour to figure out how they go there... they got there when i was ( Read more... )

not much new going on... school is school... life is life... i can now do the waltz... stuart said he is going to go back to being himself now... (evil, jerk, jackass...)... i'm fine with that... i just doubt he will still talk to me when he is like that... whatever... too bad for me then... i wonder why he is going back... and his away message ( Read more... )

(this will probably get confusing cus I'm not really thinking about this right now... but something else... Well cherry said that Stuart told Kyle that he wasnt going to date (and by that it means "internet romance") someone he hasnt met face to face... and this made me a little happy to think that kyle would stop whatever he was doing... and then ( Read more... )

today i got like 50 or more hugs... and it was fun... and cherry got raped... and some fucker tried to hold my hand... and cherry enjoyed getting raped... and someone picked me up... which i did NOT enjoy... i was freaking out and i grabbed on to people so they couldnt!... omg!... and then when i get home from school... i laid down and thought ( Read more... )