I have just a few more day here in this tourist trap called North Myrtle Beach. My last day approaches at work on Friday. I need to get stuff ready, but Im not sure what to do. I have five days and then I will be moved into my apartment in Rockville Maryland. I can't wait but my stomach is jumping. It is actually coming down to the fact. Now ( Read more... )

I did something i dont know if I want to admit to ( Read more... )

I had soo much fun. I was exhausted yesterday though. I had not gotten much sleep. Staying up too late, trying to fit soo much into one day. But I got a lot done. I looked at many many different apartments. I liked two of them a lot. But it will be really expensive to live on my own. So today Andrew told me to call him because he had other ( Read more... )

I can't I can't.. It hurts keeping it from everyone.!!!! I don't do secrets very well. Not my own at least. It sucks being in the middle. Make it go away!! please ( Read more... )

GROSS..!! Valentines day is this week. Ya know what, I am not upset for not having a Valentine. I dont like it becauses I see people who are having fun and enjoying themselves. Sure some of it might just be for the day or night, and we all know that tomm. they will be just as cruel as they can to each other. But I just want to be that happy. ( Read more... )

I take it back...

I know he cares

I wish he cared like I did..

IT HURTS ME THAT HE DOESNT CARE AS MUCH AS I THOUGHT HE WOULD.

I want him to, but I dont think he does.

I went home(to NC) this past weekend.. I saw alex.. Gave him a very long hard goodbye hug.. I hope he realizes how much he will be missed by me. He did mean soo much to me.. Why? Im not sure. When he says something offensive towards me.. even jokingly I am soo hurt. I love him.. I really do.. So andrew came down as well. I loved seeing him ( Read more... )

so ... I was told to LIVE MY LIFE... now I am.. now I am trying to be interested in people(which is pointless because I wont be around in a few months)..so .. well... I dont know how to react to this whole situation ( Read more... )

I got up this morning. Started ok. Didnt really want to wake up. but I did. Andrew is funny. I love hearing from him. So I started it early. I saw that he had said "hello" over the comp. All day, from that moment on, I was soooo distracted.. School was just a burden. Because there I had to pretend to pay attention. I tryed. Dont get me ( Read more... )