i had about 5 nightmares last night.... not good ( Read more... )

i have no idea why i am so unnaturally... motivated ( Read more... )

reasoning is one of the firsts to go, you know that ( Read more... )

for the first time in a while, i actually have no idea what i should do ( Read more... )

sigh.
i think that is all i have left.
i really wish i could give more.
energy is at such a premium lately.
i know we're all feeling it.

in light of the recent retreat:
"Life is so constructed that an event does not, cannot, will not, match the expectation."
Charlotte Bronte

i swear to God if you get all my hopes up and they are then smashed to pieces ( Read more... )

and all is well, until tomorrow.

"Because no emotion is supreme, or exclusively worth living for. 
All emotions go to the achieving of a living relationship between a human being 
and the other human being or creature or thing he becomes purely related to.
All emotions, including love and hate, and rage and tenderness, go to the adjusting of 
the ( Read more... )

i hate knowing what i have to do.
why do i feel like i'm always going around fixing things?
why does everything always have to be broken.

"If you have always done it that way, it is probably wrong."
-Charles Kettering

oh and thank you, all of you.

i probably would be better off if i had just not gotten up this morning.
and i would be a hell of a lot less tierd.

maybe i just won't get up tomorrow.

it's not that i'm not happy, because i am ( Read more... )