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[castle_building]

I wish that I didn't always seem to have some sort of insurmountable personal problem in my life. Always. I guess in some ways this has to be normal, but the extent that it is currently affecting me can't be. I'm so sick of disliking myself and having no confidence in my intelligence, and yet I don't have the energy to fight the feeling. Actually,

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[elouise_bmc]

Sweetie, I am sorry you’re having such a rough time. I know I keep hearing bits and pieces of it, but never really enough to help in any significant way. I am sure there’s nothing I can say that you haven’t already either heard from your friends over there or thought of on your own, but I am going to try

[elouise_bmc]

...YEARS off, and still get training later in life, you can train for one thing now and end up moving as time goes by. Just because you are a biology major doesn’t mean you have to EITHER work in a lab or be a doctor 100% of the time! I could go out and be a teacher, or a social worker, or GOD KNOWS what else. I could be a fucking ARTIST. That is… if I had any artistic ability. xD But you know? And there are jobs out there that I never even knew existed! I mean, as a bio major I DO tend to think of my job choices as labbie or doctor. But seriously, there are TONS of jobs even within the lab alone. And think about like… movies. There are make-up artists and musicians and actors and sound specialists and people who make sound effects and people who make scripts and people who run the cameras and people who market the movie and hundreds of other stuff. I mean… what the hell did the sound effect man major in? Who knows! Maybe he was an Italian major! Now he makes explosions and footsteps and dinosaur roars and jars breaking. I mean… when

[elouise_bmc]

...psyche course and why did I waste my entire life taking French when I just now decided that I don’t like it that much and wtf am I going to do with this in my life