I don't really know how I feeel at the moment .. I want to feel happy but I feel depressed. Feeling depressed has become normal for me. It doesn't overwhelm me but it controls me, the way I am , and the way I act. I want to be so much but I know I can be only so little.And I also know there's nothing I can do about it.One dya I'll do somehthing ( Read more... )

Hey all , well today was TPT's first band practice, we tried out a new guitarist but we are still not sure if he will join our crew. We are pretty weak on the bling-bling but we are saving up and this weekend i am having a garage sale to earn some money. Anyways we have two complete songs written out in music with out words which if we don't find a ( Read more... )

Here you stand seething with guilt ( Read more... )

Hey all.I just got back from a 3 day church event in Homestead. It was a nice getaway from the world. I got to spend alot of time with people from my religion around the city.Anyways we had lots of fun making videos, dancing, playing with woopie cushions and hanging with friends. I gave a short talk on how I felt about the event( testimony ) and i ( Read more... )

I read something i shouldn't have rea about thirty seconds ago. I feel so used, so drained, so unwholesome! Somebody please help me for fuck's sake! I juts got out of a relationship for over a year and this fucking girl used me to the extreme! She used me to make herself feel better and I won't say that I didn't mean what I said I justs now wish I ( Read more... )

What has evolved on this outer surface you call my skin. I hate what I've become and I hate so many people, I hate living where I live and I wish I could live to see beaty but in reality I cannot leave this place I call home to see the beuty i so long desire to see. The vile people that i surround myself with just brand impure images into my brain ( Read more... )

hey everyone, sorry for my absence I'm back and living again!All i have to say is fuck my ex girlfriend! what a dumbass and thats from the bottom of my heart. I did everything for you and you took advantage of me you dumb bitch ! Well let's see how life is now you fucking dumbass ! It won't be fun like it used to be when you had me and you admitted ( Read more... )