yes well i haven't updated in some time, perhaps that is because....actually i don't know. laziness.
i miss aja. i'm probably moving to germany. i want her to come with me but i don't think she'll want to. she has too many GODAMN ATTATCHMENTS IN THE CUNT SNIFFING COUNTRY! but anywho. i'm in love with Tim. I'm in love with Aja. that's what's

i've got my liscense now. i've been driving around by myself. this should be a happy day, but i feel abysmally alone and small. chilled. i'm not ready for all of this. i have come to the conclusion that i never ever want to be alone again. i will kill myself. i'm sure of it.

My baby is coming to live with me! i don't think anything could be so great. I'm so lucky, i have two loves in my life. what did i do to deserve this? thank you, whoever! god, allah, the little dreaming boy. whatever you may be, thanks a lot. things are working out. I love you my Aja! forever.

oh goodness. he said those words! happy happy joy joy!

hmmm. going out with katie tonight (probably).
wow i have absolutely nothing to say. fuck it. no one wants to bloody well talk to me today and it's fucking me off, i'll tell you.
not even tim has e-mailed me.
bastards.
Go die, all of you.

back from the ugly coast. naught to report.

i'm going to the coast today. maybe the ocean will swallow me up and dissolve me into nothing. if not, sand castles are always fun.

I've only known tim for a few weeks....we only really started getting to know eachother a few days ago...but...what. i really like him. this is going to hurt.

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i was feeling quite bad. i need help.