Bah... what a crazy couple days. I think I need to go back on my meds.. I'm going nutso. I'm breaking up with Chris (or at least I'm trying to) but he's not getting it. I suggested we break up last night, and he said "he'd think about it." Um... what's there to think about? If one of us wants out, the one who doesn't want out really doesn't ( Read more... )

I finally got internet back. It seemed like forever. It's not cool, however, because it's dial-up and damn... I really liked cable. My parents are habitually poor though, so we can't afford cable internet anymore. Which, also sucks, because now we don't have cable tv. So basically, I've been bored OUT OF MY FUCKING MIND this week. I actually ( Read more... )

My internet is MIA right now until Thursday, so until then, I sit here at the little kids computer desk in the public library updating my horribly pathethic livejournal. Shoot me...? Anyway... I should be back in action Thursday. Or, I guess, inaction ( Read more... )

So this was a pretty good weekend. Chris came down on Saturday at about 2 pm and I stayed with him until 2 am. We went to dinner and then Finding Neverland (good movie) and then got ice cream and went back to hotel and chilled. It was nice being able to be with him. Today, I had to work from 6 am till 11 am, and he came over to meet me at work ( Read more... )

Welllllll.... FUCK. Not so much of a "dammit" kind of fuck, as a "sigh" kind of fuck. But you know what's fucking exciting? Chris is coming here this weekend! Yay! I asked my mom if I could spend the night at his hotel and she just laughed at me and said "No." Well, I'll just consider that my warning. I probably will come home at like 3 and then ( Read more... )

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to the First Level of Hell - Limbo!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
LevelScorePurgatory (Repenting Believers)Very LowLevel 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)ModerateLevel 2 (Lustful)ModerateLevel 3 (Gluttonous)ModerateLevel 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)LowLevel 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)LowLevel 6 ( Read more... )

So the weekend was pretty cool. I got to spend a lot of time with Chris and we got to know each other pretty well, and we get along really well. I think things have the potential to get serious with him. I told him last night that I haven't really been in a relationship that's lasted over two weeks in the past year since I don't want to get into ( Read more... )

It's been an uber long time since I updated, so I'll give it a shot. Me and the aforementioned friend are seeming to get along again. I've been so busy I don't know if I'm coming or going, but it should calm down after this week. We go to Missoula/Corvallis for state S&D and we leave Thursday and won't be back until way early Sunday morning. It' ( Read more... )

So I've had a pretty fucked up week or so. Ya know what I think is funny ( Read more... )

It's hard to tell someone exactly why you can't be around them. "You've hurt me more in three years than I ever deserved in a lifetime, and it's all my fault." I don't blame you for any of it... I hate what I'm doing to myself. I can't move on, I can't live my life, I can't breathe with you in it, and I've done this to myself with my own mind. I ( Read more... )