*rises from the grave*
Yes, I DO INDEED LIVE for all of you who I usually only kept in touch with on here. To be honest I'm quite surprised how many people kept me on their friend list o_O. I haven't updated this thing in forfreakingever...so I guess I'll sum up my life, to an extent ^^.
Basically everyday is FFXI, possible work, sleep, eat, etc...it used to be great when I first started at Lima. Got like 20-30 hours a week, was happy, got to play XI plenty, hang out with my new online friends...but in the process I almost forgot my other friends, my AIM friends mostly...AIM (and just the internet in general) doesn't hold the appeal to me as much as it used to :(. I used to be able to sit on AIM, talking to people for HOURS at a time...now I come online for a few minutes every once in a while to organize a gathering with my RL friends, and if I'm waitin for my friends to show up...I'm extremely bored on AIM, cuz chatting like that isn't fun to me anymore. And to all my AIM friends, I'm sorry ;_;.
But now...well, to be quite honest life sucks. I'm pretty sure I've come down with depression, I'm currently on medication for it. Lima hired like 34982374987236 fucking new people, and I get only like 2 days a week now...going from nearly 200 a paycheck, to maybe 80-100...which fucking sucks, I can't pay ANYTHING with that kinda pay. I was playing XI like mad, but...I won't say it's losing it's appeal, I still love playing it, but it's not fun if a certain few people aren't on, and if they're not on it's boring as hell to play. Since I'm depressed I find it extremely hard to get any motivation to go out and get a new job...every place I apply to either has what they need, isn't hiring, or just never gets back to me, so essentially I'm screwed for the time being ;_;. It's very depressing waking up knowing I'm basically just wasting my life not making money for myself until I start feeling better, which...I have no clue how long that could be. It could happen tomorrow, it might not happen for weeks, months...mebbe longer, I don't know. All I know is it's not now ;_;.
I've been at the very least making sure to see my friends IRL. I may be depressed in general, but I refuse to alienate myself from the people I need most, my friends (both online and IRL). No matter what you always have your friends, no?
Well I really don't have anything else to talk about right about now...that's my life, literally ;_;. So exciting, ain't it? That's another reason this thing hasn't been touched....who the hell wants to hear me rant about depression, FFXI, work, and sleep everyday? No one, hell...I don't wanna write it either.
Hehe, I have a feeling this entry is going to be mad commented...
*wave*
PS: This OC Remix is my ABSOLUTE FAVORITE THING TO LISTEN TO RIGHT NOW, Nerpin, if you haven't downloaded this piece...get it now, you'll love it.
Basically everyday is FFXI, possible work, sleep, eat, etc...it used to be great when I first started at Lima. Got like 20-30 hours a week, was happy, got to play XI plenty, hang out with my new online friends...but in the process I almost forgot my other friends, my AIM friends mostly...AIM (and just the internet in general) doesn't hold the appeal to me as much as it used to :(. I used to be able to sit on AIM, talking to people for HOURS at a time...now I come online for a few minutes every once in a while to organize a gathering with my RL friends, and if I'm waitin for my friends to show up...I'm extremely bored on AIM, cuz chatting like that isn't fun to me anymore. And to all my AIM friends, I'm sorry ;_;.
But now...well, to be quite honest life sucks. I'm pretty sure I've come down with depression, I'm currently on medication for it. Lima hired like 34982374987236 fucking new people, and I get only like 2 days a week now...going from nearly 200 a paycheck, to maybe 80-100...which fucking sucks, I can't pay ANYTHING with that kinda pay. I was playing XI like mad, but...I won't say it's losing it's appeal, I still love playing it, but it's not fun if a certain few people aren't on, and if they're not on it's boring as hell to play. Since I'm depressed I find it extremely hard to get any motivation to go out and get a new job...every place I apply to either has what they need, isn't hiring, or just never gets back to me, so essentially I'm screwed for the time being ;_;. It's very depressing waking up knowing I'm basically just wasting my life not making money for myself until I start feeling better, which...I have no clue how long that could be. It could happen tomorrow, it might not happen for weeks, months...mebbe longer, I don't know. All I know is it's not now ;_;.
I've been at the very least making sure to see my friends IRL. I may be depressed in general, but I refuse to alienate myself from the people I need most, my friends (both online and IRL). No matter what you always have your friends, no?
Well I really don't have anything else to talk about right about now...that's my life, literally ;_;. So exciting, ain't it? That's another reason this thing hasn't been touched....who the hell wants to hear me rant about depression, FFXI, work, and sleep everyday? No one, hell...I don't wanna write it either.
Hehe, I have a feeling this entry is going to be mad commented...
*wave*
PS: This OC Remix is my ABSOLUTE FAVORITE THING TO LISTEN TO RIGHT NOW, Nerpin, if you haven't downloaded this piece...get it now, you'll love it.