anthony petersen
i saw the ant today at the mall--and by his studied indifference i am quite sure he saw me. he looked into the store and i was standing right there in the center of the second doorway; our eyes met. i pointed at him--so the beauty advisor (who i used to work with & who remembers the beginning of my relationship with ant) could see him. lucky for us his girl was with him. so my coworker got a pic of them. it's posted in the store. so everybody knows who that is--and perhaps less bullshit will arise.
pi showed up later & freaked out when we told her we saw them. i don't know what she's going to do; she is still upset (rightfully so) about him. She's really pissed that he's walking around free after what he's done. I'll back her up--whatever she chooses. i really wish he'd just move far far away --somewhere up the east coast -- where we would never go. I'm pretty sure he's about as happy to see me as i am to see him.
i would kind of like to see him bleeding in deep water tied to a chum line. i understand why i feel that way--and i know i'm not alone there. i just don't want to feel such revulsion and negative crap--ever--for any reason.
it does give me the opportunity to look at what i do have--and god do i feel like an asshole for the petty things i've allowed to crop up there. for all the shit i've come across--josh is really one of the kindest, sweetest and most loving people out there. and he loves me--like he got into miami and called 6 times (so far) on the drive back. I just missed his calls & that sucks for both of us--but the last message? that he's still on swiss time, is driving & will get back at 3 A.M. ; so he'll catch me later because he doesn't want to wake me up at odarksomething hour. oh--what is that--consideration?
what a delightful (and unfortunately unusual) trait.
is like the disney thing--looks like i get my happily ever after.