It Was Only Supposed to Be About the Dream. Oops.

[catatonicia]

I had a dream about van Gogh last night.

That cannot be a good sign.  Especially when the first time I tried to type that sentence it came out as, "Van Gogh had a dream about me last night."   Shit.

I don't know where the fuck my head is, but I need to get my shit together.  Otherwise I'm going to fuck myself up royally here, fuck up graduate

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[catatonicia]

I know you do, and that's one of the reasons I'm not completely fucked out of my skull yet. I also know that aspects of this thinking are normal, but others...not so much. But I can't get my brain to stop going, "Is this it? Is this all there is? All there is ever going to be?" It pisses me off to no end

[catatonicia]

I may not always know what to make of it, but it is oddly endearing.

It's good to know that even after all of these years it's still endearing and not obnoxious. ::grins::

They're always there if you need them. That much is a given.

I always loved your words, but you knew that. There is a certain part of me that even now, you still set at ease just by being you and being here; perhaps that will still strike you as strange, but it is true. I'm grateful as well, more than I could ever possibly express, but you knew that, too.

[lunar_wolf]

I'm still pondering the depressing theory that no one is special, we're all convinced that we are, and the secret to happiness is accepting we're all dullards at heart, completely unremarkable in our skin stretched over bones and tendons.

*hugs*

[catatonicia]

Your post made me feel like rewatching Fight Club, because all I'm hearing is the snowflake line from it. Heh. But yeah, it's times like this that I just wonder how the others make it through without thinking. I just don't get it. But your icon made me giggle.

[anonymous]

I forgot you have internet this time around! You missed all the juice on the end of the season! I averaged one run a weekend for 6 weeks straight. :-D

Anywho, going to graduate school just because you can and you do not know what you want to do is a few good years of procrastination. I'd have to say that unless you start exploring avenues you will be just as clueless in a few years as you are now. I can definitely exclaim in extreme confidence that the transition from academics to the fucking workforce sucks dick.

[catatonicia]

God, I'm so damn dense. I just saw that you posted here; you probably won't even see this. I've been crazy busy so the internet has not been nearly as useful as I would have predicted. Hopefully all has been well with you; I'll probably pop over on your xanga soon just to point out in two places that I'm an ass.

Hopefully when I get back we can catch up on all of the fun things that I missed. I'd love to hear how the end of season turned out~~