(SF) GDYB Series 56: A Lonely Night (PG 13)
hi everyone ^^
thanks for commenting and reading my fics. i've been trying to write one for awhile but i really can't ^^;;; you may find this one unfocuse but also find something you like. so please enjoy ur reading ^^ all comments are always welcome.
btw, is there anyone going to see yg family concert? see u there ^0^
A Lonely Night
Jiyong sighed after he turned off his laptop. He just came back from YG an hour ago. Big Bang new album was almost done. He looked at a clock. It was two in the morning. He had to sleep.
Jiyong looked at his empty bed. It had been so long since it was not. A couple months ago, Youngbae was busy and now he was the busy one. Although they used to be busier and not to meet often, he never felt so much lonely like this.
Jiyong tried to sleep. If he did not sleep now, when Big Bang were back, he would not be able to handle those coming hectic schedules. He hugged a huge pillow thinking that it was his Youngbae. He sighed again and closed his eyes.
Another lonely night was passing…slowly.
….
“Hyung, let’s go shopping,” said Youngbae to his manager.
“Is there something you want to tell me?” asked Boram. He had known Youngbae for more than five years. He never asked him to go out often. “This is the third time you ask me out this week. I think you want go to the studio with Jiyong,” he said.
Youngbae shook his head but Boram did not buy it.
“I just want to go here and there before we can’t,” explained Youngbae, “and I don’t want to bother Jiyong when he is working.”
“Huh?” Boram raised his eyebrow questioningly.
“Can we go now?” asked Youngbae getting up to leave.
“Wait,” said Boram, “When is your presence bothering him?”
Youngbae bit his lips. He should not let out those words.
“What exactly happens between you two?” asked Boram. When Youngbae did not answer, he added, “We won’t go anywhere until you say what it is.”
Youngbae sighed and sat down next to his manager again.
“I don’t have anything to do when I go there, only surfing the internet. I can’t help him there. So my presence may rather bother him than help him,” said Youngbae.
“And?” said Boram.
“No. it’s just that,” said Youngbae.
“It’s never bothered him before. Why do you think it does now?” asked Boram.
“He’s never asked me to be there since I worked on my album,” said Youngbae, “and when I was there after my solo finished, he hardly talked to me. He kept talking with Seunghyun hyung, Kush hyung and Teddy hyung but not me.” He was obviously disappointed.
“Youngbae,” said Boram, “sometimes you can be such a stupid boyfriend. I think only Jiyong can be nonsense like this.”
“What? I’m not a stupid boyfriend,” Youngbae protested and pouted.
“Are you sure? Think about it while we go shopping. If you think you aren’t like I said, I’ll pay our dinner at Dongwook’s restaurant. If not, you have to pay,” said Boram, “Let’s go.”
Boram walked out the door first. He whistled happily because he was going to have free dinner this evening.
….
“Jiyong,” said Kush who just entered the studio, “Didn’t you have some sleep last night?”
“Good afternoon, hyung,” said Jiyong, “I did have some sleep last night. Why?”
“You look like you are running out of battery,” said Kush looking around, “Where is he?”
“Who?” asked Jiyong.
“Your battery charger,” said Kush, “I haven’t seen him here for awhile. Do you guys have a problem?”
“No, we don’t,” said Jiyong smiling, “Youngbae’s just finished his solo. He needs sometime to regain his power. And you as well as the other hyungs keep telling him to go out and meet his friends, so he may be doing it now.”
“What about you?” asked Kush.
“What about me?” Jiyong asked back.
“Are you happy with this?” asked Kush.
“Why not?” said Jiyong, “As long as he is happy, I am happy too.”
“But you don’t look like that,” said Kush seriously.
“I am, really,” said Jiyong, “I’m just tired. I really think he should ease up, go out and meet his friends more often. It’s not that I’ve found him annoying. I love his presence and I want to be with him all the time. But it may be unfair for him as I’ve already made him become such an introvert and music freak. I think it’s good to see him live his life.”
“But you are an inseparable part of him,” said Kush.
“I know,” said Jiyong, “That’s why I told you I’m okay when he is not around. He’ll be back so I’m waiting right here.”
Kush smiled and patted Jiyong’s head.
“You are really grown up,” said Kush proudly, “Let’s go. I’ll buy you some ice cream.”
“Thank you, hyung!” said Jiyong smiling brightly. Although he said he was fine, he really missed Youngbae. Ice cream might be able to ease his loneliness.
….
Youngbae could not think properly why Boram called him a stupid boyfriend as he was stopped by fans and his friends. When he started to think about it, there had to be something distracting him. So when his manager asked who would pay for the dinner, he did not know.
“I don’t know,” said Youngbae.
“Let’s eat and we’ll talk about it,” said Boram getting into Dongwook’s restaurant.
They had a very big dinner. After everything was gone, they started talking.
“So, do you want some help?” asked Boram.
“Yes. Why am I a stupid boyfriend?” asked Youngbae.
“I can help you with this,” said Boram, “Do you know why he doesn’t ask you to go to the studio with him?”
“I don’t know,” said Youngbae instantly.
“Yah!” said Boram, “You have to think about it. I can’t just tell you what it is. If you don’t figure it out yourself, how can you deal with more problems in the future? I’m your hyung and I’m worried.”
“Sorry hyung,” said Youngbae sighing.
“When did he stop asking you?” asked Boram.
“Since I worked on my solo. Then, he surely did not want to bother me but he was always with me whenever he was free to the studio, to the dance room or to the voice training room,” said Youngbae, “But now I’m free and he hasn’t asked me still.”
“You’ve just finished your solo, haven’t you?” asked Boram.
“Yes,” said Youngbae, “I was so tired that it could be seen clearly. He told me to rest and have sometime for myself before going back to work again.”
“Do you think you have enough rest?” asked Boram.
“Yes, I’m fully recharged,” said Youngbae, “I’ve met my family, my friends and visited many places and done many things I want. I can’t wait to go back to the stages.”
“Have you told him about that?” asked Boram.
“No, I haven’t. Jiyong seems to be really busy and tired. I don’t want to annoy him or anything,” said Youngbae.
“How does you talking to him or being with him annoy or bother him?” asked Boram, “Don’t you want to be with him? Do you like hanging out with me, with your friends more than with him?”
“No, of course not!” said Youngbae, “I want to be with him but I don’t like it when I have to just watch him work so hard and I can do nothing about it. Being there but feeling just like the air is unbearable.”
“But without the air, how can he breathe? How can he live? Do you ever think about this?” asked Boram.
“He got all the hyungs there,” said Youngbae trying to defense himself.
“And are they like you?” asked Boram.
“No,” said Youngbae, “but they can help him.”
“And you can’t?” said Boram, “You’ve know him for ten years. You should know him much better than this. Why do you have to act like a stupid boyfriend who gets angry just when your boyfriend talks to other people more than he talks to you? He is working and those people are your hyungs too.”
“But,” said Youngbae trying to give himself some excuses but Boram cut him.
“When he was with you during your solo activities, did he have to produce a song for you? Or did he have to mix a song for you?” asked Boram.
“No,” said Youngbae, “I did not want him to do anything just being there with me. That’s all.”
“Do you know why you are so stupid here?” asked Boram.
“Yes, I know,” said Youngbae feeling guilty. He should not leave Jiyong alone. He might be waiting for him at the moment. “Shall we go now?” he asked.
“We’ll leave as soon as you pay for this. Remember our deal?” said Boram.
“Really? I think you’ve forgot about it already” said Youngbae pouting. His manager was really getting better on getting on them. He paid and got up ready to leave. “Let’s go.”
Youngbae would run if he could. He had to meet Jiyong now because he did not owe him an apology, but a make up kiss and hug too.
….
“Youngbae, what’s up?” greeted Big Seunghyun.
“What’s up hyung?” Youngbae greeted back. He walked to Jiyong who turned to look at him. His boyfriend was smiling brightly.
“Youngbae! You come,” said Jiyong smiling.
“Let’s take a break,” said Kush, “I think I need a cup of coffee.”
“Me too,” said Big Seunghyun and the sound technician.
“Do you want some coffee?” asked Kush looking at Jiyong and Youngbae. “But I don’t think you need anything anymore,” he said teasingly.
“Hyung!” said Jiyong, “Oh! I think I need one thing.”
“What?” asked Kush.
“I need a longer break so take your time and don’t need to hurry back here,” said Jiyong smiling trickily.
“I know,” said Kush chuckling, “but if you want to do something, do it at home. Okay?”
“Let’s go home then?” asked Youngbae jokingly. He knew that they could not waste anymore time. If they did not come back soon, they would have to wait until 2011. That was too long.
“Yah!” shouted Kush, “Your boyfriend has to work. Be patient, can you?”
“I know. Just kidding hyung,” said Youngbae to the back of them. “Don’t forget my coffee. Thank you hyung,” he shouted behind them.
Youngbae closed the door and walked back to Jiyong . He hugged him from behind.
“I’m sorry,” said Youngbae against Jiyong’s neck.
“For what?” asked Jiyong turning himself around to face Youngbae.
“For being such a stupid boyfriend,” said Youngbae touching his forehead with Jiyong’s.
“You don’t need to because I know that sometime you can be much more stupid than I am,” said Jiyong smiling teasingly.
“Yah!” shouted Youngbae and pouted.
“Don’t pout,” said Jiyong sighing, “and you are stupid again.”
“Why?” asked Youngbae.
“It’s time to kiss me now, babo,” said Jiyong smiling.
“I really am,” said Youngbae and he kissed those smiling lips of his dragon.
And no lonely nights would pass by them ever again.
END ^^
thanks for commenting and reading my fics. i've been trying to write one for awhile but i really can't ^^;;; you may find this one unfocuse but also find something you like. so please enjoy ur reading ^^ all comments are always welcome.
btw, is there anyone going to see yg family concert? see u there ^0^
A Lonely Night
Jiyong sighed after he turned off his laptop. He just came back from YG an hour ago. Big Bang new album was almost done. He looked at a clock. It was two in the morning. He had to sleep.
Jiyong looked at his empty bed. It had been so long since it was not. A couple months ago, Youngbae was busy and now he was the busy one. Although they used to be busier and not to meet often, he never felt so much lonely like this.
Jiyong tried to sleep. If he did not sleep now, when Big Bang were back, he would not be able to handle those coming hectic schedules. He hugged a huge pillow thinking that it was his Youngbae. He sighed again and closed his eyes.
Another lonely night was passing…slowly.
….
“Hyung, let’s go shopping,” said Youngbae to his manager.
“Is there something you want to tell me?” asked Boram. He had known Youngbae for more than five years. He never asked him to go out often. “This is the third time you ask me out this week. I think you want go to the studio with Jiyong,” he said.
Youngbae shook his head but Boram did not buy it.
“I just want to go here and there before we can’t,” explained Youngbae, “and I don’t want to bother Jiyong when he is working.”
“Huh?” Boram raised his eyebrow questioningly.
“Can we go now?” asked Youngbae getting up to leave.
“Wait,” said Boram, “When is your presence bothering him?”
Youngbae bit his lips. He should not let out those words.
“What exactly happens between you two?” asked Boram. When Youngbae did not answer, he added, “We won’t go anywhere until you say what it is.”
Youngbae sighed and sat down next to his manager again.
“I don’t have anything to do when I go there, only surfing the internet. I can’t help him there. So my presence may rather bother him than help him,” said Youngbae.
“And?” said Boram.
“No. it’s just that,” said Youngbae.
“It’s never bothered him before. Why do you think it does now?” asked Boram.
“He’s never asked me to be there since I worked on my album,” said Youngbae, “and when I was there after my solo finished, he hardly talked to me. He kept talking with Seunghyun hyung, Kush hyung and Teddy hyung but not me.” He was obviously disappointed.
“Youngbae,” said Boram, “sometimes you can be such a stupid boyfriend. I think only Jiyong can be nonsense like this.”
“What? I’m not a stupid boyfriend,” Youngbae protested and pouted.
“Are you sure? Think about it while we go shopping. If you think you aren’t like I said, I’ll pay our dinner at Dongwook’s restaurant. If not, you have to pay,” said Boram, “Let’s go.”
Boram walked out the door first. He whistled happily because he was going to have free dinner this evening.
….
“Jiyong,” said Kush who just entered the studio, “Didn’t you have some sleep last night?”
“Good afternoon, hyung,” said Jiyong, “I did have some sleep last night. Why?”
“You look like you are running out of battery,” said Kush looking around, “Where is he?”
“Who?” asked Jiyong.
“Your battery charger,” said Kush, “I haven’t seen him here for awhile. Do you guys have a problem?”
“No, we don’t,” said Jiyong smiling, “Youngbae’s just finished his solo. He needs sometime to regain his power. And you as well as the other hyungs keep telling him to go out and meet his friends, so he may be doing it now.”
“What about you?” asked Kush.
“What about me?” Jiyong asked back.
“Are you happy with this?” asked Kush.
“Why not?” said Jiyong, “As long as he is happy, I am happy too.”
“But you don’t look like that,” said Kush seriously.
“I am, really,” said Jiyong, “I’m just tired. I really think he should ease up, go out and meet his friends more often. It’s not that I’ve found him annoying. I love his presence and I want to be with him all the time. But it may be unfair for him as I’ve already made him become such an introvert and music freak. I think it’s good to see him live his life.”
“But you are an inseparable part of him,” said Kush.
“I know,” said Jiyong, “That’s why I told you I’m okay when he is not around. He’ll be back so I’m waiting right here.”
Kush smiled and patted Jiyong’s head.
“You are really grown up,” said Kush proudly, “Let’s go. I’ll buy you some ice cream.”
“Thank you, hyung!” said Jiyong smiling brightly. Although he said he was fine, he really missed Youngbae. Ice cream might be able to ease his loneliness.
….
Youngbae could not think properly why Boram called him a stupid boyfriend as he was stopped by fans and his friends. When he started to think about it, there had to be something distracting him. So when his manager asked who would pay for the dinner, he did not know.
“I don’t know,” said Youngbae.
“Let’s eat and we’ll talk about it,” said Boram getting into Dongwook’s restaurant.
They had a very big dinner. After everything was gone, they started talking.
“So, do you want some help?” asked Boram.
“Yes. Why am I a stupid boyfriend?” asked Youngbae.
“I can help you with this,” said Boram, “Do you know why he doesn’t ask you to go to the studio with him?”
“I don’t know,” said Youngbae instantly.
“Yah!” said Boram, “You have to think about it. I can’t just tell you what it is. If you don’t figure it out yourself, how can you deal with more problems in the future? I’m your hyung and I’m worried.”
“Sorry hyung,” said Youngbae sighing.
“When did he stop asking you?” asked Boram.
“Since I worked on my solo. Then, he surely did not want to bother me but he was always with me whenever he was free to the studio, to the dance room or to the voice training room,” said Youngbae, “But now I’m free and he hasn’t asked me still.”
“You’ve just finished your solo, haven’t you?” asked Boram.
“Yes,” said Youngbae, “I was so tired that it could be seen clearly. He told me to rest and have sometime for myself before going back to work again.”
“Do you think you have enough rest?” asked Boram.
“Yes, I’m fully recharged,” said Youngbae, “I’ve met my family, my friends and visited many places and done many things I want. I can’t wait to go back to the stages.”
“Have you told him about that?” asked Boram.
“No, I haven’t. Jiyong seems to be really busy and tired. I don’t want to annoy him or anything,” said Youngbae.
“How does you talking to him or being with him annoy or bother him?” asked Boram, “Don’t you want to be with him? Do you like hanging out with me, with your friends more than with him?”
“No, of course not!” said Youngbae, “I want to be with him but I don’t like it when I have to just watch him work so hard and I can do nothing about it. Being there but feeling just like the air is unbearable.”
“But without the air, how can he breathe? How can he live? Do you ever think about this?” asked Boram.
“He got all the hyungs there,” said Youngbae trying to defense himself.
“And are they like you?” asked Boram.
“No,” said Youngbae, “but they can help him.”
“And you can’t?” said Boram, “You’ve know him for ten years. You should know him much better than this. Why do you have to act like a stupid boyfriend who gets angry just when your boyfriend talks to other people more than he talks to you? He is working and those people are your hyungs too.”
“But,” said Youngbae trying to give himself some excuses but Boram cut him.
“When he was with you during your solo activities, did he have to produce a song for you? Or did he have to mix a song for you?” asked Boram.
“No,” said Youngbae, “I did not want him to do anything just being there with me. That’s all.”
“Do you know why you are so stupid here?” asked Boram.
“Yes, I know,” said Youngbae feeling guilty. He should not leave Jiyong alone. He might be waiting for him at the moment. “Shall we go now?” he asked.
“We’ll leave as soon as you pay for this. Remember our deal?” said Boram.
“Really? I think you’ve forgot about it already” said Youngbae pouting. His manager was really getting better on getting on them. He paid and got up ready to leave. “Let’s go.”
Youngbae would run if he could. He had to meet Jiyong now because he did not owe him an apology, but a make up kiss and hug too.
….
“Youngbae, what’s up?” greeted Big Seunghyun.
“What’s up hyung?” Youngbae greeted back. He walked to Jiyong who turned to look at him. His boyfriend was smiling brightly.
“Youngbae! You come,” said Jiyong smiling.
“Let’s take a break,” said Kush, “I think I need a cup of coffee.”
“Me too,” said Big Seunghyun and the sound technician.
“Do you want some coffee?” asked Kush looking at Jiyong and Youngbae. “But I don’t think you need anything anymore,” he said teasingly.
“Hyung!” said Jiyong, “Oh! I think I need one thing.”
“What?” asked Kush.
“I need a longer break so take your time and don’t need to hurry back here,” said Jiyong smiling trickily.
“I know,” said Kush chuckling, “but if you want to do something, do it at home. Okay?”
“Let’s go home then?” asked Youngbae jokingly. He knew that they could not waste anymore time. If they did not come back soon, they would have to wait until 2011. That was too long.
“Yah!” shouted Kush, “Your boyfriend has to work. Be patient, can you?”
“I know. Just kidding hyung,” said Youngbae to the back of them. “Don’t forget my coffee. Thank you hyung,” he shouted behind them.
Youngbae closed the door and walked back to Jiyong . He hugged him from behind.
“I’m sorry,” said Youngbae against Jiyong’s neck.
“For what?” asked Jiyong turning himself around to face Youngbae.
“For being such a stupid boyfriend,” said Youngbae touching his forehead with Jiyong’s.
“You don’t need to because I know that sometime you can be much more stupid than I am,” said Jiyong smiling teasingly.
“Yah!” shouted Youngbae and pouted.
“Don’t pout,” said Jiyong sighing, “and you are stupid again.”
“Why?” asked Youngbae.
“It’s time to kiss me now, babo,” said Jiyong smiling.
“I really am,” said Youngbae and he kissed those smiling lips of his dragon.
And no lonely nights would pass by them ever again.
END ^^