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catsbycat

Thinky thoughts on our boy Dean. And the wailings of a fallen fangirl...

Mar 05, 2009 12:18

Usually I don’t bother with these sort of ramblings, mostly because I’m not terribly eloquent at getting my thoughts down on paper, but also because I don’t normally have deep, thinky, thoughts. However, when one is stuck in traffic on the way home from work, one’s mind does tend to wander. This is of course all speculation, I have no idea what’s ( Read more... )

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kimmer1227 March 5 2009, 15:39:17 UTC

Love your musings ( ... )

catsbycat March 6 2009, 09:24:20 UTC

Ramble away! That's what I was doing ( ... )

kimmer1227 March 6 2009, 13:03:57 UTC

Sam has felt slightly off in his dealings with his brother. Like there is actually a part of him that is annoyed Dean is back because it is interfering with his plans for revenge.

Yeah, I get that too. I think he's got some inner resentments going on in that crazy brain of his. I feel for the guy. He didn't ask for any of this. It wasn't his fault that the YED chose him, and it's got to be mind blowing knowing that someone you love literally sold their soul for you. How can you possibly pay that back? The one thing he could have done for Dean, save him from his deal, he couldn't. Dean's return has got to be a constant reminder to Sam that he failed him. I don't doubt that Sam loves his brother just as much as Dean loves him, but Sam is just as emotionally broken as Dean. He just hides it better. Oh, Sam.

I've been doing a little Hiatus Project on my journal. Every day for the past week I've posted something I love about SPN. Today I've got something in mind about Sammy. Check it out later if you've got the time.

catsbycat March 6 2009, 13:38:33 UTC

You're right about Oh,Sam. From what I've been saying I hope it doesn't sound like I'm being unduly harsh on Sam - not my intention at all! It's just that my thoughts have been about Dean and what impact things are having on him, and why he might be doing what he does. Sam has indeed been through his very own version of hell and is trying to cope the only way he knows how.

And I know it's not a competition, but in my head Dean always seems to edge ahead in the my-life-sucks race. Although Sam has lost just as much as Dean, he had more of a childhood and that little shot at normal; something Dean never had. I guess when tallying up the imaginary points, Dean is still ahead. Lol.

At the end of the day though, I love both those boys. Probably more than is healthy for fictional characters! I just want them to have a happy, or at least hopeful ending. They deserve that at least.

I've been doing a little Hiatus Project on my journal. Every day for the past week I've posted something I love about SPN. Today I've got something ( ... )