Glee Fic: Not Just a Holiday Romance
Title: Not Just a Holiday Romance
Author: catyuy
Rating: PG (maybe 13?)
Spoilers: for all aired episodes of glee and up to 4x10.
Summary: Blaine isn't sure of a lot of things in his life right now.
Author's Note: I wrote another fic. This has not been beta'd, so any mistakes are mine and I'll be happy to fix them. Hope you all enjoy.
Blaine isn't sure of a lot of things in his life right now. Like why Kurt forgave him or why they've been able to talk about more things these last few weeks over the phone than they had before he screwed up. Or why Mr. Hummel (its Burt, Kid) decided that bringing Blaine with him to see Kurt for Christmas was a good idea. Or why Kurt greeted him with a hug and seemed happy to see him. He's grateful for these things but he's still not sure why they're happening because he doesn't deserve them.
But, right now, Blaine has no idea how he went from discussing Its a Wonderful Life with Kurt on the couch to Blaine laying on said couch with Kurt on top of him, kissing him, touching him in all the right places and starting to grind their hips together. Well that's not true, he knows how this happened. He had been gushing over Mary and George's love and Kurt had just leaned over and kissed him. After that it escalated quickly. But he doesn't know why this is happening and if he doesn't put a stop to it then he's going to come in his pants with Mr. Hummel sleeping behind a curtain and that's the least of the reasons why this is not good.
"Kurt..... mmph... Kurt ....wait....stop" Blaine finally managed to maneuver his head far enough away from Kurt mouth to not get distracted. "We need to stop"
Kurt immediately raised his body up on all fours, panting and looking at Blaine in confusion. "Do you not want to....?"
"I would love too but I'm just confused."
Kurt squinted at him, "Confused about.....?"
"Could we...." Blaine gestured between them and Kurt understood and moved off of him and sat back on the couch giving Blaine room to do the same. "Thanks" Blaine darted his eyes about the room, biting his lip, searching for the right way to ask this.
"Blaine?" The way he was saying it and looking at Blaine meant, 'You need to talk to me sweetie because I can't read your mind and you're kind of worrying me right now' Kurt could say more silent then Blaine ever could articulate in his head.
Blaine straightened his shoulders and looked Kurt straight in the eyes. "Do you trust me?"
Kurt looked shocked at the question. "Blaine I already told you that I forgive you for.."
"No." Blaine interrupted waving his hands to stop Kurt from finishing. He gives him a small smile, "I know that you forgive me and I am so thankful for that" Kurt smiles back at him but his eyes still show his confusion. "but that doesn't mean that you trust me again. So do you?"
Kurt stares at Blaine and then takes a deep breath before turning his head to the side and blinking in thought. A minute later, "Trust you in what way?" Blaine can tell that Kurt is trying to work out where this is going and is hedging in the hopes of cutting off any undesirable outcomes. But Blaine needs answers so he can't allow Kurt to answer this question.
"Do you trust me not to screw this up again?"
Kurt sags, "Oh Blaine, you did not screw this...."
Blaine cuts him off, "Yes I did. We both know that I did."
Kurt reaches out to grasp his hand, "Well I wasn't very good at trying to listen to you so its on both of us."
Blaine grips Kurt's hand, "Even though that's true, what I did was far worse. And I need to know if you trust me not to screw up our relationship again. Because I need to know you trust me, so I can trust me."
Kurt swallows and looks down at his lap in thought while Kurt's thumb brushes mindlessly over Blaine's hand. "I want to."
"But you don't." Blaine cuts in with a sigh.
Kurt straightens back up, his other hand finding Blaine's other hand and bring their other hands to clutch togehter between them. "Now you listen to me Blaine Devon Anderson. You can't base how you trust yourself on me. You need to work that out for yourself. You also need to forgive yourself because I know you haven't. But to answer you're question, right now I don't fully trust you as my boyfriend not to wallow in your own pain and instead of talking to me, you do something we'll both regret."
Blaine slumps, he can feel the moisture building in his eyes and gently tries to detangle their hands but Kurt just grips them tighter and catches Blaine eyes again.
"However, I do trust my best friend to come to me when he makes a mistake. And that my best friend will do his best to help me understand why he did it." Kurt lets go with one and and lifts it to gently cup Blaine's cheek. "I think, once my best friend learns that he can talk to me about anything and I will be there for him, then maybe I might trust my old boyfriend to do the same. But he needs to trust himself and trust that I won't leave if he tells me negative things"
Blaine gives Kurt a watery smile. "Even if that best friend tells you that your outfit looks ridiculous."
Kurt gives a little laugh, "Even if my best friend is completely incorrect about how fabulous my outfit is."
Blaine lets out a relieved breath, "Well okay then." Kurt leans in to give him a kiss but Blaine brings up a hand to hold him off. "Wait."
Kurt gives him a pout. "Wait for?"
Blaine cups Kurt's cheek and his thumb grazes over Kurt's lips. I don't think we should do this."
"It doesn't have to mean anything after the holiday is over." Kurt whispers against his thumb.
"I never want to do something with you that doesn't mean anything."
Kurt gives a brief shake of his head, "I don't mean that it would mean nothing to us. It would just mean something but not that we're getting back together now."
"I don't want to mess around with you," Blaine's hand slides from Kurt's cheek to lay over his heart. "and then not be with you."
"You're always in there Blaine."
"And your always in mine Kurt but I can't do this with you now and go back to just being friends."
Kurt gives him a flirty look, "I don't think we were ever 'just friends' Blaine but," he gives Blaine an understanding nod. "you're probably right." He glances over at the bookcase and what's hang from it. "Can I still claim Mistletoe kisses at least?"
"Should I ask why that's up by your area?"
"Rachel put it there and kept catching me every morning this last week. I was beginning to worry but she just seems to want to celebrate the season."
"Ahh. Well then, yes you can claim Mistletoe kisses but are there any more around because I do not want to be caught under it with your father."
Kurt lets out a giggle, "There's another in the kitchen."
"Well I'll be sure to look out for that one." Blaine rolls his neck and gestures to the tv. "Now I do believe that we were about to watch the most wonderful Holiday movie of all time."
"Fine, fine. Try to corrupt me with your holiday spirit but first." He reaches out and grabs Blaine's mug of cider off the coffee table and handing it to him before taking his own as well. "I propose a toast."
"And what are we toasting?" Blaine asks.
"To being thankful for spending a wonderful Christmas with my dad and my best friend and holiday roomate, Mr. Blaine Anderson." He says the line just as he did last year.
Blaine straightens his posture and puts on a posh accent. "Well said sir. I would also like to say I'm thankful for your father bringing me here to spend this time with my own best friend and holiday roomate, Mr Kurt Hummel."
They smile at each other and clink their mugs in a toast.
Author: catyuy
Rating: PG (maybe 13?)
Spoilers: for all aired episodes of glee and up to 4x10.
Summary: Blaine isn't sure of a lot of things in his life right now.
Author's Note: I wrote another fic. This has not been beta'd, so any mistakes are mine and I'll be happy to fix them. Hope you all enjoy.
Blaine isn't sure of a lot of things in his life right now. Like why Kurt forgave him or why they've been able to talk about more things these last few weeks over the phone than they had before he screwed up. Or why Mr. Hummel (its Burt, Kid) decided that bringing Blaine with him to see Kurt for Christmas was a good idea. Or why Kurt greeted him with a hug and seemed happy to see him. He's grateful for these things but he's still not sure why they're happening because he doesn't deserve them.
But, right now, Blaine has no idea how he went from discussing Its a Wonderful Life with Kurt on the couch to Blaine laying on said couch with Kurt on top of him, kissing him, touching him in all the right places and starting to grind their hips together. Well that's not true, he knows how this happened. He had been gushing over Mary and George's love and Kurt had just leaned over and kissed him. After that it escalated quickly. But he doesn't know why this is happening and if he doesn't put a stop to it then he's going to come in his pants with Mr. Hummel sleeping behind a curtain and that's the least of the reasons why this is not good.
"Kurt..... mmph... Kurt ....wait....stop" Blaine finally managed to maneuver his head far enough away from Kurt mouth to not get distracted. "We need to stop"
Kurt immediately raised his body up on all fours, panting and looking at Blaine in confusion. "Do you not want to....?"
"I would love too but I'm just confused."
Kurt squinted at him, "Confused about.....?"
"Could we...." Blaine gestured between them and Kurt understood and moved off of him and sat back on the couch giving Blaine room to do the same. "Thanks" Blaine darted his eyes about the room, biting his lip, searching for the right way to ask this.
"Blaine?" The way he was saying it and looking at Blaine meant, 'You need to talk to me sweetie because I can't read your mind and you're kind of worrying me right now' Kurt could say more silent then Blaine ever could articulate in his head.
Blaine straightened his shoulders and looked Kurt straight in the eyes. "Do you trust me?"
Kurt looked shocked at the question. "Blaine I already told you that I forgive you for.."
"No." Blaine interrupted waving his hands to stop Kurt from finishing. He gives him a small smile, "I know that you forgive me and I am so thankful for that" Kurt smiles back at him but his eyes still show his confusion. "but that doesn't mean that you trust me again. So do you?"
Kurt stares at Blaine and then takes a deep breath before turning his head to the side and blinking in thought. A minute later, "Trust you in what way?" Blaine can tell that Kurt is trying to work out where this is going and is hedging in the hopes of cutting off any undesirable outcomes. But Blaine needs answers so he can't allow Kurt to answer this question.
"Do you trust me not to screw this up again?"
Kurt sags, "Oh Blaine, you did not screw this...."
Blaine cuts him off, "Yes I did. We both know that I did."
Kurt reaches out to grasp his hand, "Well I wasn't very good at trying to listen to you so its on both of us."
Blaine grips Kurt's hand, "Even though that's true, what I did was far worse. And I need to know if you trust me not to screw up our relationship again. Because I need to know you trust me, so I can trust me."
Kurt swallows and looks down at his lap in thought while Kurt's thumb brushes mindlessly over Blaine's hand. "I want to."
"But you don't." Blaine cuts in with a sigh.
Kurt straightens back up, his other hand finding Blaine's other hand and bring their other hands to clutch togehter between them. "Now you listen to me Blaine Devon Anderson. You can't base how you trust yourself on me. You need to work that out for yourself. You also need to forgive yourself because I know you haven't. But to answer you're question, right now I don't fully trust you as my boyfriend not to wallow in your own pain and instead of talking to me, you do something we'll both regret."
Blaine slumps, he can feel the moisture building in his eyes and gently tries to detangle their hands but Kurt just grips them tighter and catches Blaine eyes again.
"However, I do trust my best friend to come to me when he makes a mistake. And that my best friend will do his best to help me understand why he did it." Kurt lets go with one and and lifts it to gently cup Blaine's cheek. "I think, once my best friend learns that he can talk to me about anything and I will be there for him, then maybe I might trust my old boyfriend to do the same. But he needs to trust himself and trust that I won't leave if he tells me negative things"
Blaine gives Kurt a watery smile. "Even if that best friend tells you that your outfit looks ridiculous."
Kurt gives a little laugh, "Even if my best friend is completely incorrect about how fabulous my outfit is."
Blaine lets out a relieved breath, "Well okay then." Kurt leans in to give him a kiss but Blaine brings up a hand to hold him off. "Wait."
Kurt gives him a pout. "Wait for?"
Blaine cups Kurt's cheek and his thumb grazes over Kurt's lips. I don't think we should do this."
"It doesn't have to mean anything after the holiday is over." Kurt whispers against his thumb.
"I never want to do something with you that doesn't mean anything."
Kurt gives a brief shake of his head, "I don't mean that it would mean nothing to us. It would just mean something but not that we're getting back together now."
"I don't want to mess around with you," Blaine's hand slides from Kurt's cheek to lay over his heart. "and then not be with you."
"You're always in there Blaine."
"And your always in mine Kurt but I can't do this with you now and go back to just being friends."
Kurt gives him a flirty look, "I don't think we were ever 'just friends' Blaine but," he gives Blaine an understanding nod. "you're probably right." He glances over at the bookcase and what's hang from it. "Can I still claim Mistletoe kisses at least?"
"Should I ask why that's up by your area?"
"Rachel put it there and kept catching me every morning this last week. I was beginning to worry but she just seems to want to celebrate the season."
"Ahh. Well then, yes you can claim Mistletoe kisses but are there any more around because I do not want to be caught under it with your father."
Kurt lets out a giggle, "There's another in the kitchen."
"Well I'll be sure to look out for that one." Blaine rolls his neck and gestures to the tv. "Now I do believe that we were about to watch the most wonderful Holiday movie of all time."
"Fine, fine. Try to corrupt me with your holiday spirit but first." He reaches out and grabs Blaine's mug of cider off the coffee table and handing it to him before taking his own as well. "I propose a toast."
"And what are we toasting?" Blaine asks.
"To being thankful for spending a wonderful Christmas with my dad and my best friend and holiday roomate, Mr. Blaine Anderson." He says the line just as he did last year.
Blaine straightens his posture and puts on a posh accent. "Well said sir. I would also like to say I'm thankful for your father bringing me here to spend this time with my own best friend and holiday roomate, Mr Kurt Hummel."
They smile at each other and clink their mugs in a toast.