I'm finally relaxed. I can sit and relax now. I just don't know what to do with myself now. I want a job but not sure where I want to work. I'm still constantly thinking about next year. I have graduation, serious job hunting, possibly relocating and my relationship. What if we decide to got separate paths? These days I find myself more and more ( Read more... )

I was reading old high school notes. Good GOD I was crazy... you know the bat-shit type. I was so paranoid of everyone hating me so I hated everyone else. I also remember the drugs I was taking. Zoloft and adderall? I mean I feel like anyone who would take both those drugs would drive anyone insane... especially a crazy hormone teenager. I was also ( Read more... )

I just love being able to vent all the thoughts I've been thinking. This goes to my girl ANNE!

LOVE YOU ANNIE!!!!!!!!<3<3<3<3<3

Seriously though, it's amazing how much weight can be lifted expressing your emotions to a best friend. I really need to calm the fuck down. Things will be fine. I will stop stressing. I'm very excited for Lisa's Bday ( Read more... )

Time was never on my side
Here I am sitting here in pain because I cant stop thinking of the past
WHY ME?
I'm still behind while everyone else has moved onI'm clearly bored and stalking old journals that people haven't updated in years. I can't believe I'm back at this. I really wish I had never deleted my original Journal. That alone would be my ( Read more... )

K... now that school is over I need a job ASAP!. Thinking about applying to a few libraries.. the first one being at the school. I've also been thinking being a receptionist somewhere... maybe a massage or hair salon? I've also been contemplating on applying at Grand Central. Could be fun right? I had fun last week and I was sober... so why not? ( Read more... )

SO fuck that stupid Math class I took. After all that hard work and dedication, my flop of a professor had the nerve to flunk me. Does effort to anyone mean anything anymore?

WELL FUCK ME GENTLY WITH A CHAINSAWI'm starting to have regrets about going back to school. It was almost 10 years ago after I graduated high school, I had the best paying ( Read more... )

I have a final tomorrow and have done 0 amount of studying for it. I just want a D for christ sakes. I'm tempted to do something thats risky but we'll see how that goes. I'm just sitting here being nostalgic as usual. I swear it can be a blessing and a curse at the same time.

Got a lot of events this summer coming up. Maybe too many? Maybe thats ( Read more... )