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[caughtmyheart]

Got into my first car accident ever, 2 days ago..broke my nose and though my car is DRIVEABLE and its mostly body damage, fuck, it is BARELY driveable, the hood could easily fly up if i drive it i think. i cant believe it. plus it was my fault, i wasnt even speeding but because im so paranoid anyway about those FUCKING cameras, i put my face behind

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[ncjason]

drug free?

[ncjason]

Well, technically...yes.. lol. I have been on methadone two years, which some insiders say is worse than heroin, but most people generally see it as way better of an option b/c its legal first of all, regulated and monitored, and also eliminates the lifestyle and crime that often comes with drugs of sorts. My car has 2000$ worth of damage, boo :( What happened was, i was in a hurry, not even speeding though, going 65, but i trip out over the freeway cameras cathcing me going 65 in an 55 zone, but not having seen the sign, i dont know, i am paranoid about those things! Research has shown time and time again that those have contributed NOTHING to safety and actually increase danger because people are either worried about them, or are going fast yet suddenly slow down drastically (then speed right back up)! so i was worried about them, i pulled my visor down in front of my face :/ irts notlike i couldnt see, just not enough, lol. Could see a car's length ahead of me and i thought that was enough, forgot to consider that the person in

[caughtmyheart]

ahh didnt mean to be anonymous in my own journal ;/

[ncjason]

How are you doing now?

[ext_770310]

goood, very happily married still, we get along amazingly, as perfect as anyone ever could! and most importantly, pregnant again..another boy! i am very happy about it except i really did want a girl :( so we are going to have one more baby after this (but this next one we are going to wait 4 years on though! 3 at once is too overwhelming!) and if i dont get my lil girl by then, i will officially be a boy factory and give up! lol. but yeah things are good :) we own a house now, things are good. its funny to me to think that the whole time i was with andy, a really bad addict, living a hellish life, i cant believe i actually already KNEW the guy who was perfect for me and that i'd end up with and be the perfect other half to! i had no idea i already KNEW the guy, but turns out i knew all along but i just wasnt looking right in front of me and i wasnt ready to appreciate the amazingness yet at that time :D

[ncjason]

How are you now? Did you marry the guy you were with after Randy? The guy who was also into heroin?

[caughtmyheart]

NO, Andy was years ago. I have since married a guy i dated in high school that was always so nice to me, and we have been married 4 years and we have two sons, 1 and a half, and 3. they are great, things are great! I can't write much now later, but i can fill you in more later :)