stuck behind nearby hope

[caughtupintears]

Ever feel like the one thing that you really need is right in front of your eyes? Like you can just have it, but it seems to be invisible. I feel like the one thing that I need is so close to me but I just cant seem to grasp ahold of it

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[searchthestars9]

hmm. im not really sure what the other thing is, but for me its either that recurring dream thing (brownish blonde hair) or my.. family problemm

tomaro i will ask you about the other thing i guess...

are we doing anything tomaro morning?

[caughtupintears]

not the dream thing..your family problem......but i did feel strange and kinda uncomfortable telling you. embarrassed at that too.

do you want me to call you or sumtin? im bored.....

[searchthestars9]

get offline right now.

ive been trying to call you to ask you something for like five minutes.. dont worry its not serious or anything

get off now

[caughtupintears]

answer your cell...

[searchthestars9]

oh, and these are the ONLY songs i need from garbage....

april tenth
lick the pavement
the world is not enough
thirteen
tornado

[searchthestars9]

bam. check the icon hehe.

[caughtupintears]

wonderful.....

[searchthestars9]

yay i win!! wanna play again?

[caughtupintears]

ok....i'll tell you bout the other problem.
i feel like im just not good enough for anyone. it seems like everyone is pushing me away from their life. like no one wants to be around me. it seems as if people make wrong judgments and dont care about anything else but themselves. you know how i seem to be a loner at sometimes. but now it seems like that always. nobody seems to really come to "me" i seem to always GO to ppl. like i have to chase and i never get chased
im not talking about ppl that like me. cuz i know of sooo many ppl that like me more than a friend. and i assume (obviously) that they accept me for who i am. yet most of the time, they like me for the WRONG reasons. and im just so sick of it. i just need the so called "one" i am sick and tired of being surrounded by complete asses that have no idea what they are doing in life.

anyway, the main point is that i feel so alone lately and i dont know what to do. i seem to be getting jealous of a select few ppl. i just need to find a life.....summer....

[f1rechick]

I <3 you guys.

Ashley, you need to get your ass on some form of an online thing that I can IM you on. Cause me and adam have been working some movie ideas that I should run by you. They all end with me rolling in money and you and adam deeply in love. Blockbuster hits really, classics. You'll love them, but I don't want you to sue me and take away my rich new lifestyle. So get onlien

[searchthestars9]

lol yes! some of them end with really weird graves tho, with slushie machines..

[f1rechick]

and padding and couches and things like glowing greenish disco balls

[caughtupintears]

i cant....im still fricken grounded from november over a damn notebook. but i promise as soon as i get AIM back i will IM all of you guys...well whoever is on anyways.

[f1rechick]

If Adam asked you out, would you say yes? cause its in the script