not much to update ( Read more... )

sleep deep breaths, exhaled on your dark chest, 
this comfort; quaking,
large steps taken in so little time. 
and i don't mind. no, i don't mind. 
though i've never desired anything
            more than this
i couldn't feel more at ease in your words
           that have stolen nine years time
           that have needed maturity
wouldn't you think the ( Read more... )

i tried to write something but i dont have time

shit

sorry .... maybe i'll put it on paper and send it to your house-
you like getting letters, right?

of course, everyone does.

this whole thing is ... just....
a big writer's block for me today, apparently.

this cd better be good. 
*(God i hope so)*

but you REALLY don't understand!
eh?

i don't remember when last 
i was this happy
for all the words i could think to write
you'd scoff and laugh and tease
you don't know how sappy 
i could be.

haha
when will i wake 
to find you
telling me the punchline
to this hilarious joke?
can't be real enough 
for me to believe

and i can hit a high note
for every possible mood
in a minute.
apologies for all 
that ( Read more... )

I did some farm-y things today....reminded me of being a kid.

took a long walk with the dogs this evening, an hour before sunset. crept up on 5 deer grazing in the hayfield. saw a few bats out too early since the weather is warm...it's sad because they will probably die with their hibernation being interrupted....goners.

then, i put the dogs away ( Read more... )

enough with the melodramatic bullshit....

sorry to anyone who took the time to read it...haha God, I hate this time of year. Something about December just sucks the life out of me. so here are a few dumb updates....nothing big. My family went to eat Chinese food on xmas day and this was my fortune (typical) :

"Discontent is the first necessity of ( Read more... )

cease the writing of words which dampen spirits and discourage logic. 
i can't keep my drastic thoughts locked up tight enough
 for your courtesy. 
would you want me to be passive, patient, and calm
i can try, but at the expense of denying the impulse to say the millions of words that i've saved for you, 
this long. 
would it be wrong to want to settle ( Read more... )

Anxiety must be abandoned. The disappointments hardest to bear are those which never come.  Impatience is a spirit poison ( Read more... )

christmas eve and i don't give a shit
we're eating chinese tomorrow and drinking :)  
our bah-humbug family event.....oh welll
Dad will be home in January...so will Joel
I have been doing tons of thinking lately...that's about all I can afford
to do these days. I've decided to have every last item of mine moved out of the 
apartment by the time he gets ( Read more... )

Rage ( Read more... )