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caz20

Back to reality

Nov 05, 2006 15:11

Ginny, Warren, Chandler and I piled into Warren's car yesterday to go to New Orleans and see the Fray. Stopped off at the hotel to check in and drop off our stuff, and then hightailed it over to House of Blues for our dinner reservations at 4:30. Dinner was good and then we waited ( Read more... )

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rekralc November 6 2006, 07:45:52 UTC

for a moment i thought you meant the lead singer in the fray bought you a drink lol

caz20 November 6 2006, 23:05:42 UTC

haha...how awesome would that have been?

I definitely thought about you that night though. I'm really looking forward to our road trip to the Grand Canyon. And I meant to mention this to you when you were in Lafayette but it slipped my mind: my friend Cynthia moved to Arizona this past spring and I've talked to her and she said we were welcome to stay with her. The town she lives in is the closest actual town to the Grand Canyon so it would be a really great way to save some money.

On a side note, I wanted to let you know that I did read your blog on myspace. I want you to know that you are incredibly special to me (there are few people that I'll stay up to 5 am talking to) and I do adore you. I know that our contact isn't always frequent and if it's not enough, I hope that you will let me know because I don't want our connection or our friendship to ever be doubted. Love you with all my heart babe.

rekralc November 7 2006, 08:44:57 UTC

caroline... i need therapy... i'm worried about myself... i'm not dangerous or depressed or anything like that... my life is beautiful but i realized today how much i believe i'm undeserving of my beautiful life... i'm thankful for it... and i love it... but it's not how i feel about the outside that's bad... it's how i feel about the inside... and i was forced to admit how bad it really was and to unbury it tonight

i really need help

caz20 November 7 2006, 22:15:19 UTC

to be honest, as cheezy as this sounds, you've gotten the hard part over with...recognizing that something isn't quite right. Sorry if I sound like Dr. Phil, but seriously, good for you. I really do understand how you feel right now. Sort of how I feel on a regular basis. I'm not incredibly sure what to tell you though. My words of consolation and sympathy may help but I don't know if that's what you are looking for or even need right now. If you think you need help, then get it. You are completely capable of handling this situation and doing what needs to be done, YOU JUST HAVE TO DO IT. And you can do it ( ... )