gosh its been a long time since i've posted anything. so much has happened. i'll try to get everything in, but i might get tired of typing
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i have gone through that recovery process, and it is not always a fun one. but you'll be glad you did. i've been "recovered" for about 2 years now... but that doesn't mean it's over, or that i never slip back into disordered thoughts about eating. it's something that's going to be there, and it's okay if it shows up again. don't think of it as a failure if you have a bad eating day. it's just a bad day. and as for the body issues thing... for me it helped to realize my body was NEVER going to look the way i wanted it to, simply because of my bone structure. i realized i would look worse thinner. and i still worry about the pudge on my stomach and my big thighs... but also... i've also realized that i can eat three full meals a day and they don't get any bigger.
what you're doing takes a lot of courage and strength, and i commend you and wish you the best!
kerri. thanks for that. it is really good to know someone that has gone through the process and is generally on the other side. it gives me hope that i will get there. it has been a real struggle and as of right now my team is wanting me to return to the residential program because i'm dropping weight too quickly, and its also unneeded considering i left treatment still underweight. i'm glad that you have gone through the process, from what i've read on your live journal page you are a brilliant individual who is going to do great things with your life and you deserve and need to be healthy to accomplish those things. i hope you can continue to do well. i read that you are in south america right? i hope that you are having a wonderful time and learning bunches. what an adventure!! i am so envious that you can speak spanish enough to actually converse with other spanish speaking people. i don't think i could even ask where a bathroom is. thank you for your encouraging words!!
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but you'll be glad you did.
i've been "recovered" for about 2 years now... but that doesn't mean it's over, or that i never slip back into disordered thoughts about eating. it's something that's going to be there, and it's okay if it shows up again. don't think of it as a failure if you have a bad eating day. it's just a bad day.
and as for the body issues thing... for me it helped to realize my body was NEVER going to look the way i wanted it to, simply because of my bone structure. i realized i would look worse thinner. and i still worry about the pudge on my stomach and my big thighs... but also... i've also realized that i can eat three full meals a day and they don't get any bigger.
what you're doing takes a lot of courage and strength, and i commend you and wish you the best!
-kerri
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i'm glad that you have gone through the process, from what i've read on your live journal page you are a brilliant individual who is going to do great things with your life and you deserve and need to be healthy to accomplish those things. i hope you can continue to do well.
i read that you are in south america right? i hope that you are having a wonderful time and learning bunches. what an adventure!! i am so envious that you can speak spanish enough to actually converse with other spanish speaking people. i don't think i could even ask where a bathroom is.
thank you for your encouraging words!!
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