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[cbd2782]

not good news this week. went to the doctor. my weight has dropped 10 lbs since i have come home. he said i am on my way to needing to go back to treatment. this journey is so hard. i just don't know whats wrong with me. i know what i have to do, i just am having a hard time doing it. i don't really know what i need. maybe i need to go back

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[calebsdoodee]

b. nothing's wrong with you. you're fighting a battle right now to save your life, but that's not wrong, it's just what is right now. I don't know if that even makes any sense at all, or if it even expresses what I mean to say. the restraints others place on us suck so much, it's worse when we add our own restraints on top of that. Since developing this ed, have there been times when you felt empowered over it, like you were going to conquer it? what was different about those times? i love that you want to wear crazy clothes and dance and laugh and be all that blair is. and no, that's not too much to ask. that's all about you and it's just asking to be yourself and who you are. and who you are is someone who will dance and laugh and wear crazy clothes and paint and sing and smile. and make other people around her laugh and dance and sing and smile just by being in her presence. i really believe that. i believe in you. if it takes another stint in treatment, well, that's ok. because you're worth it. every single bit of

[cbd2782]

thank you so much for that d. you are the best. you believing in me and saying that i'm worth it kind of gives me hope, because right now i'm on the verge of giving up. i really want to get together with you soon. i think we should sing and dance and act completely crazy one day. it could be so much fun. if we can just forget about all of the shit in our lives for one hour and just sing and dance like little girls it will make my life a little more worth living...