24 hours ago i didn't really understand what ellie meant by running the 6th and 7th laps but i think i just turned the corner on lap 6 cuz im really feeling it. I feel run down from this ministry. Ive given a lot into it the past few weeks. I wanted to give to it and I'm glad I did because it was worth it - no doubt about that. But I'm tired. I'm ( Read more... )

4th paper of 4 and its not coming easy. I couldn't give a crap about this dumb poem and what it means. It means nothing to me. Instead I return again and again to my poems which i love dearly and to emails that make me feel loved.

another 85 and sunny day in central illinois. Gosh what a flat, lame place but i like it a lot - am loving it. I can't pretend not to be apprehensive about next year and at peace with it but the past few weeks have been so great. I have had so much fun. YL contact work is great - i'm really getting into some relationships w/ these girls which is so ( Read more... )

Yesterday was a great day. I like how days can turn out like that when you don't expect it. So I had a test - could have gone better i think. I called Ellie about something and she called me back and we made a date to play frisbee. Went over to Japan gardnes which are really cool and I had never been to and we climbed trees and made up stupid ( Read more... )

no.1
I love this sound.
What sound is this?
The sound of the lark on the branch.
I hear not.
You live not.

no.2
In 19 years and 90 days
I can never say
"I have been in love."
I have loved flesh,
flesh that is my blood.
I have loved the Creator.
But never have I loved
the flesh that is another.

...lameo

He is just and loves me more than i can ever comprehend. Gosh, this past week I think I have grown. I have come to know myself better - always such a great feeling. Real conversations with people about things that leave you feeling vulnerable are always so good. During these 48 days of Lent I've felt like i've been in a fog of sin...thinking about ( Read more... )

tomorrow...err today, at 11am will be so great!!! My plans are to eat an exquisite lunch at bevier hall, play frisbee on the quad, pack, nap, read for leisure, watch the illini kick butt...you know. I love THAT. It's funny, I was taking a break from studying and stumbled across cislo's music postings. That guy is hilarious. Now that i'm in college ( Read more... )

since i don't feel like putting together coherent thoughts, I will list them ( Read more... )

Tomorrow is unofficial St. Pat's Day. It scares me. It's an excuse for the students of University of Illinois to start drinking at the crack of dawn, come to class drunk and laugh about it. I feel so polarized by this entire thing. I'm in college, so it's like why don't you drink? As my roomate put it: most of the kids in her major are losers and ( Read more... )

I like life. Life, life, life. Mmmhmm. It's hard. No doubts there folks. I get sad around a lot of people. I don't like that. Friday night, leadership and actually friday during the day. I love my friends here. They are super awesome. But they pale in comparison to God. MMhmm it's true. The only guy that will never never disappoint. I need to ( Read more... )