It's all just intersecting monologues, not dialogues...{depressing entry starts.....NOW}

[ccopperpott]

First Snowfall of the year here in the DC metro area, and for a moment, I'm smiling...I am both elated as when I was at 6 years old, and the wonderment of the snow was amazing...but also sullen, having this nagging feeling, quite like having asthma I suppose, but emotionally...Its like there's all this joy and wonderment around, I see it everywhere

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[ccopperpott]

LJ has been an annoying fuck all evening, so I understand, and feel your pain on that one....

If you've never lived where it has snowed than you haven't lived...do it, if only for a year. The first snow of the year is one of the few things that moves me...

I typed a whole big paragraph here, complaining about the back-up friend status I'm at...but just deleted it, you obviously understand, so the point is moot...

I'm not sure about your non-candid LJ approach, but let me know how that works out, and maybe I'll adopt it myself...

[ccopperpott]

Boston university, or Boston College...I used to hang out there all the time...both that is...As for my friends, Ive durpassed the backup status, and for a while only hung out if I were to call, they never did...now neither of us do...I vent on my posts because If I didnt, well I'd probably be worse off...and no one ever gets that much into my buisness to give me grief about something I may say...so I guess thats good...

[pisces313]

can you send me some of that snow?

I noticed myself the other night, sitting on the couch, wrapped in a blanket, watching a movie alone on a night I knew everyone was out, cause I had worked the next day.... and I even had to say it out loud, "You are going to be that old woman with tons of cats."

=)You are not alone in your thought process and anything I say you already know. But I know too.

[ccopperpott]

Dont feel bad...Ill be an old woman one day too....

hey wait a second....thats not right....

HAHAHAHAHA

[neverbenormal]

Ah snow, how i miss it. I curse my decision to move to the south, all it does it rain, grrr. After being around the snow in Maryland last winter...how i miss it. The crunch of fresh fallen snow is one of my faves as well, however it is outdone by being the first to make my footprints known in the winter landscape :-) Hopefully soon I shall be back where it snows ::crosses fingers::

There is not anything to add to your friend situation that would make it better, like you said, you already know the trite answers that would be given...However, that last bit reminded me of one of my favorite songs, mostly because it mirrors the cry of our hearts...

"...I want you to want me, I need you to need me, I love you to love me..."

I let music say my words for me, lets me feel less alone in my feelings, that way i know there has to be at least one other person feeling the same way as me...makes me less alone somehow :-)

Best wishes and seasons greetings from a complete stranger :-)

[ccopperpott]

Greatly Apreciated, that someone who runs across my journal takes the time to write all this...thanks for the well wishes, and hopefully you'll find your way back to where it snows again..I dont live far from Maryland, so I've seen alot of the same snowfalls you have, and yes, music does help a lot, you're right....hope you have a great holiday season as well and thanks again...

[neverbenormal]

Anyone who feels the way I do at times deserves to have a comment written. Besides, I would feel wrong about not posting when someone put it all out there and allows me to stumble upon it. I feel hurt when people read my journal and never post and I dont find out till later...like when I see that they have friended me and not even told me of thier intentions...my own personal rant.

Okay, enough of my bothering you. Have a lovely evening :-)

[ccopperpott]

no bother at all...I'm up all night anyway...rant away, Im good at that...