Fear of Success

[cdtobehealthy]

If I fail to succeed..

What do I get to avoid?
The world, life, the future, people, and love.

Who do I get to punish or love?
I get to punish those I care about, my father for always telling me he wished I was more thin so I could be "beautiful", myself for being a failure at many things. I get to get out of loving anybody.

What emotion am I

Comments

[juicybetty]

Wow. I have the same fears/problems,etc...

[cdtobehealthy]

Answering those questions.. as honestly as possible, really dragged out some surprising things inside of me. I never really thought about things like that - about weightloss this way- until I tried to answer those questions with the complete truth.

It really does shine a light on things. And it goes for all areas of life that have "Successes" and "Failures" .. I'm thinking about trying to answer the questions when regarding school, or owning my own business, etc.

*hugs*

[loseyourslf]

Hi, I am totally inspired by your journal. I hope you dont mind if I add you as a friend, I am just getting started on this journal business.

Congrats on your lose. It's exhilirating to think it is possible.

[cdtobehealthy]

i'll add you right back :)