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[cecilialisbon_]

Tell me whatever is in the deepest depths of your heart. Tell me a secret, a love or a passion. Tell me your worries and fears. Comment ten times or comment once.

Relish the anonymity and pour out your heart

Comments

[anonymous]

I've been so close to suicide that all that was missing was the rope to hang myself with.

Some days, I wish I'd found one.

[audrich]

I'm me, not anon :)

I wish I'd never gotten married.
I wish I'd lost my virginity before I got married!
I wish I'd had children earlier.
I desperately want another child.
I'm 40 soon, yet feel like 19, I want to be 19 again.
I wish I was thinner, I really want this.
I can't get over the way my mum died.
I wished I'd stayed at uni to do a Ph.D.

.. and there's loads more! LOL! I am so screwed up, yet I'm perfectly normal, from what I've seen :D

[anonymous]

I am so so afraid right now. I am afraid of who I am becoming, and of who I will be. I want this so badly, and I know why. But at the same time I cannot help thinking that it is a terrible, terrible mistake. I am stretched so tight between the two people I want myself to be: the one who is big and smart and brave, and the one is small and quiet and starved. I know that now is the only time that I will have a choice, because either way I walk I can never go back. I know what I want to pick, and that frightens me...

[anonymous]

I'm afraid that being sick is the only identity I have and that if I lose it, no-one will love me or even notice me any more.

[anonymous]

I'm scared to be completely recovered from my ED. Although, food isn't on my mind anymore; just the thought of not having some sort of ED, is frightening.

[cecilialisbon_]

I know.