Posting For The Sake of Posting
My muse hates me. As usual, I'm not having a terribly hard time coming up with ideas but I'm having difficulty fleshing them out. So I wrote a bit of verbal diarrea just to try and finish something. Anything. Blah.
I apologize in advance for the pointlessness of this drabble.
Title: But...
Fandom: Firefly
Pairing: Rayne
Disclaimer: I hereby claim nothing.
Summary: River has the grumps but it ends with a metaphorical big fluffy bunny. Not quite pink, but maybe a cream bunny with a pink nose.
Inspired by: I Hate Seagulls by Kate Nash. Unfortunately I can't use it for my A-Z Shuffle Meme as I have already written for I. Rats.
She hated waking up with flashes of blue behind her eyes and her heart in her throat. She hated waking up with liquid fear soaking her skin and her sheets. She hated the phantom pain that radiated from long-healed needle marks and the blur of tears brought by grief, memory, and frustration.
She hated the way it affected her whole day. She hated the way the shower smelled like the infirmary. She hated the way she lashed out more.
She hated wool sweaters. She hated protein. She hated hot tea that burned tongues and made everything taste like ash. She hated questions. She hated people who smiled. She hated buzzing bees and whispered words she wasn't supposed to hear.
She hated cortex ads. She hated Mal leaving things on the bridge for her to trip over. She hated tripping. She hated crying irrationally over tripping when it didn't even hurt. She hated emotions.
But...
She liked growly mumbles and the way his first thought was to wonder what she was up to.
She liked the way he always wanted to touch her, even if it was just to hold her hand. She liked blue eyes and every one of his smiles. She liked sleeping in his bed. She liked not sleeping in his bed.
She liked the way he made her laugh. She liked his mind. She liked that he thought she was strong. She liked that he made her believe it.
She liked that his eyes found her as soon as she walked into the room. She liked that he caught her in his arms. She liked being the only one to get him to break his own rules. She liked the way he kissed her with the same single-minded focus he put into everything he did.
She liked the smile she could feel as he asked what he'd done to deserve such a greeting so he could be sure to do it again.
"I'm grumpy without you."
She liked that he fixed that.