CAUTION: DEPRESSION
i could write a thousands stories
laugh a million times
find somebody new
but that doesnt change what he did.
and it doesnt make me feel any better.
im so sick of getting dicked over.
he says he cares. obviously not.
he said he wanted to take care of me.
he failed.
-hes not worth it
-you dont deserve it
-you can do 5 times better
-there are better guys out there
-he isnt worth your tears.
tell me something i havent heard.
like how to heal a broken heart
or how to get past all the pain
how to stop these tears from falling
perhaps how to forget someone who hasnt been off your mind in 4 months.
dont tell me that hes not worth it.
i care so much
i tried so hard
he was my prince charming.
i have to figure out if he was worth it or not myself.
just hold back my hair
when i vomit out of pain
and hand me a tissue to stop my crying
try to get me to laugh
but know my insides are dying.
its only a matter of time now...
last night as i was laying in bed trying not to cry
i looked toward the ceiling and said to God
"i can erase the board that says 'lauren and john'
and i can change 'in a relationship' to 'single'.
i can stop wearing the clip he and i wore
to signify we were together
and i can erase him from my buddy lists.
but God... how do i erase him from my heart?"
how can i forget the songs he dedicated for me. the way it felt when he held me. the little comments we made when we teased each other. the way he kissed me. the way he made me feel. the times i threw away other things just to be with him. the saturdays we spent together.
the part of myself that really truly trusted him only to have it shoved back into my face...
John Sacco has broken my heart.
laugh a million times
find somebody new
but that doesnt change what he did.
and it doesnt make me feel any better.
im so sick of getting dicked over.
he says he cares. obviously not.
he said he wanted to take care of me.
he failed.
-hes not worth it
-you dont deserve it
-you can do 5 times better
-there are better guys out there
-he isnt worth your tears.
tell me something i havent heard.
like how to heal a broken heart
or how to get past all the pain
how to stop these tears from falling
perhaps how to forget someone who hasnt been off your mind in 4 months.
dont tell me that hes not worth it.
i care so much
i tried so hard
he was my prince charming.
i have to figure out if he was worth it or not myself.
just hold back my hair
when i vomit out of pain
and hand me a tissue to stop my crying
try to get me to laugh
but know my insides are dying.
its only a matter of time now...
last night as i was laying in bed trying not to cry
i looked toward the ceiling and said to God
"i can erase the board that says 'lauren and john'
and i can change 'in a relationship' to 'single'.
i can stop wearing the clip he and i wore
to signify we were together
and i can erase him from my buddy lists.
but God... how do i erase him from my heart?"
how can i forget the songs he dedicated for me. the way it felt when he held me. the little comments we made when we teased each other. the way he kissed me. the way he made me feel. the times i threw away other things just to be with him. the saturdays we spent together.
the part of myself that really truly trusted him only to have it shoved back into my face...
John Sacco has broken my heart.