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[celebrian_3]

Something has to change. Me, my reality, or the way I perceive it. Something must change or I do not know how much longer I will be able to function. I am tortured by my past and can see no livable future. Just a dead end reality where I never again make enough to live on.

I go on for the sake of people who care--for those who would be damaged by

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[libwitch]

I just happened to see this post - we don't know each other at all since this is a friends of friends thing (this is what one does when one is avoiding household responsibilities, right?) I am certain that the people around you are grateful that you make the choice to go stay around for them, and I hope that one day you will find one reason to make that choice for you. It means that the next day, another reason can come around a little easier.

[croneitude]

I'm always happy to listen, even if there's not much I could do to help the situation.

[barca_k]

The only thing I have for you is my old warhorse standby - get to tomorrow. That's all. & then, Tomorrow, get to the next day. It's like grinding diamonds out of your own teeth, I know, it's kind of like telling someone who just fell out of a plane, "Hey, just don't hit the ground, you'll be alright."

But time is everything, & if you can have any more of it, maybe things will get better. You've always got me to talk to if there's nothing else worthwhile to do.

Also, not to put too much pressure on you, but, yes, "we" (by that I mean me) would be, as you say, damaged by your absence. It would hurt & cause damage to me for you to go so soon after having just lifted me by reintroducing yourself.