Parents and family are a tough subject for me. I grew up thinking my family was staggeringly normal, only to discover in my late teens that I lived in an emotional void. So I do understand something of what you say about the disconnect you have with your mother.
When my Dad passed on, I didn't even feel sad. I didn't gloat or anything, there just wasn't any emotional connection that his death severed.
There is no quantifying the damage that a failed parent can do. I discovered this in my teens and it is a truth I still hold. Parents have a bond with us on levels that defy description. No matter how we push them away or block them out, their neglect and apathy can still cut us to the bone.
So you are fully justified in your melancholy thoughts about your mother. I am glad you had a great father to raise you with love and support so that you at least knew what a parent should be like.
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Parents and family are a tough subject for me. I grew up thinking my family was staggeringly normal, only to discover in my late teens that I lived in an emotional void. So I do understand something of what you say about the disconnect you have with your mother.
When my Dad passed on, I didn't even feel sad. I didn't gloat or anything, there just wasn't any emotional connection that his death severed.
There is no quantifying the damage that a failed parent can do. I discovered this in my teens and it is a truth I still hold. Parents have a bond with us on levels that defy description. No matter how we push them away or block them out, their neglect and apathy can still cut us to the bone.
So you are fully justified in your melancholy thoughts about your mother. I am glad you had a great father to raise you with love and support so that you at least knew what a parent should be like.
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