oh my god i look so much worse today then yesterday. now somehow theres a big scab on my lip, my eye wont even like stay open its so swelled.. what the fuck

i hate this. i cant stop thinking about how i ruined everything. SOOO MANY THINGS.

fuck.

everything was going sooo good too. of course something always has to happen.

okay soo.. the accident. yeah. i pulled out in front of a metro bus and it hit me. the car spun all around and ended up way far away. i dont remember it really. i have no fucking idea how i didnt see a big bus coming at me. why would i just turn out in front of it? thats the part i hate the most, because i feel like such a complete idiot. i dont ( Read more... )

okay soo.. im pretty excited about this good mood lasting for more than a few hours thing. and i think yaninas pretty much the coolest person ever. her little brother told cassandra about how she was saying i was a crazy bitch and she was going to kill me (thats nothing new, but i like when she changes her story depending on who shes talking to, ( Read more... )

well.. its weird how my moods change so quickly. im having such a fun time. okay.. im bored so i will write what i did. i havent actually gone into detail about anything in a long time. but im bored and i cant sleep so i will ( Read more... )

this weekend i had lots of fun ( Read more... )

so.. tonight at work was exciting. apparently people are concerned about me again. or maybe it never stopped. i really dont know why people think i am like a drug addict or something. maybe they just think im depressed. maybe they're right. matthew and me went outside and talked (because andrews cool and he told on me) and he made me feel better. ( Read more... )

i was in such a good mood.

i was excited to come write about it.

thank you for ruining it.

i feel really emo.

like im just sitting here. and i am so close to just freaking out and crying and going crazy. my dad yelled at me last night and told me i needed my head examined and said he was going to call the councelor this week. i just want to cry soo bad. i am. im such a loser. and i feel emo.

basically.. i hate everything. but, i made progress. i dont even think about andrew and that whole situation anymore. i had just gotten used to everything, it was going good, and now its all going to change again. it already has. i dont like change. i feel like shit.