So... i'm sitting in the Nubs Nob eating area (not really a cafeteria) doing my Toxicology take home test and listening to Pandora Internet Radio (HIGHLY RECOMENDED!). i have come to realize some things. I really like toxicology, take home tests, pandora internet radio, and researching different things like Pehnobarbital and the effect of alcohol ( Read more... )

i studied so hard, and so long. why then, did i not to so hot on my calc test? the prof let me see the key and my test together... i got about 1/2 of the things 100% right. and i think i'll get about half of the points that i missed as partial credit... so thats about a 75. in reality it'll probably be around a D... my chem test went really well ( Read more... )

I have been wondering lately what the Divine (i don't care what you call it... God, Zeus, Satan, Brigit, etc etc) is trying to teach me through my migrianes. Yes my pain tolerence is up. Yes my patients for people is up (you'd be ever so suprized). but what is the goal we are trying to achive, maybe if i knew that i could understand why i have them ( Read more... )

OMG its so hard to explain right now, in words how i feel, if i could do a backflip i would, but i can't so i won't. i think i've finally found my migraine abortive wonder drug. THANK GOD FOR DHE!!! my blood vessels in my head actually feel like a NORMAL size, not this 10X what the should be crap. now, if we can just get the migrianes under control

gomenisai... i'm so very sorry

my walls are back up... and no, i'm not talking about computers, houses, or any other material thing

P.S. esspresso and anti-anxiety drugs counter act one another

should i write a will? i go to the ER/hospital and am on so much medicine that i feel like i'm dieing some times. therefore, should i write a will? or even a living will? yes/no, and why?

I REALLY DON'T WANT TO GO UPNORHT ALONE AGAIN!!!!! God damn it!

four times this month i've had to go to the ER at the end of last month it was close to 4 times as well... i'm really gettting sick of having to go... but i think i'm on the right track medicine wise... more "good days" (when i don't have to take medicine). is it sad that a good day is still painfull but is one where i dont' take medicine? a good ( Read more... )

note, as a general warning, this post may very well be "emo" i kinnda stay away from that stuff but i need to vent and badly ( Read more... )