God...the depression hath hit me...LIKE OUTTA NOWHERE!

[celtic_ronin]

I dont know. The day after your birthday is supposed to feel better than this. I guess I just needed a day to finally drop my happiness and sink into a weird, teenager depression

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[bex_is_a_luzer]

Brendan, sweetheart, I dunno if this helps, but if you ever need anything, I'm here too, okay? Remember one time in the eighth grade I called because I was trying to help a friend get over something and I didn't know what to do, and you said that I don't have to take on everyone else's crap by myself? You don't have to either, bro. Take a day to live. I love you.

Bren Bren,

[starshineyes]

I am so sorry about today. I'm sorry that I lied to you about being "fine". I'm even sorrier for letting myself act like that at school today. It was like... I just gave up. I couldn't handle ANYTHING anymore. When Mr. Anderson handed me that shitty essay I just realized that I really am a stupid stupid girl. I'm probably failing classes (MATH) just because I'm too effing lazy to turn in my homework. You and Danyelle, George and Tawnya, Josh and Alissa... ALL THESE HAPPY LITTLE COUPLES they just drive me nuts sometimes. I get so jealous of these happy people. Especially when I want to talk to one of you guys alone but I can't because I feel like I'm intruding on something "special". Like, you guys are happy and in love and in your own little world and all I would do is bring you down. It's not that I don't like being around you both together. But it's just that when I want to talk to someone, I just want it to be me and that someone. And granted... I would have talked to you both and told you the same stupid teenage bullcrap...but

Re: Bren Bren,

[bouncy_erbear]

YOU! Brit you are not stupid!! Augh! What's with you people thinking you're stupid and all that. So what if you got a 2 or whatever on ONE essay you are a great writer...it was probably just an off day!

No more of this stupid or pot head or fat talk ok? You are uber smart and really pretty.

Seriously Brit, I wish I had a great complexion like yours. You are a great kid and if I were a guy I'd totally date you...

But alas I'm not...and I'm still straight because Rev has yet to drag me 'over the edge'...but I digress.

You are a great person and I'm here for you sweetie.
<3 erbear

Re: Bren Bren,

[aichadancer]

Really, truly and honestly, Katie has a point. What is with us and having super shitty days at the same time??? It's strange. We are freaks. And yet, I love us all for it.

Brittany. You need to know, that if you EVER need to just vent stupid shit out or vent really important stuff, it doesnt matter if me and brendan are together or not, if you want one of us, take one of us. I know what you mean about all the happy little couples cause there was a time last year when all I saw were happy little couples and it drove me crazy. And I never want to make you feel like you're ruining something cause there's no way possible you could. I heart you kid and theres a sign on my wall that I'm lookin at right now saying you heart me too. So everything be damned, if Brittany needs Danyelle time, she can have it.

Well everyone. Friday will be better. And if not Friday, Saturday then. We just need recovery time. lovelovelove.

Re: Bren Bren,

[celtic_ronin]

Brit, don't ever worry about breaking into or conversation to ask us something to pull away one of us to talk, ok? Yer mah homegirl, Brit! And come off that self hatred stuff. I mean, come on, I dunno if it counts for much (*ducks*) but my sister really looks up to you as a role model. Yer funny, you ARE pretty no matter what you say, and you make people feel better around you.
I vented yesterday cause it was one way I could, not because I was actually mad at you. I COULDNT be mad at you!
Now go have some cheesecake. You deserve it.

[sehwa]

Bren, I wish more than anything I worried about other people's problems. That's NOT a bad thing. I can't really give you advice there because I'm not a helpful person like you, but as far as depression goes, I hafta tell you, I would have definately done something regretful by now if it weren't for you guys. What I'm getting at is if there's anything I can do, even if it's just listen, or read an 8 page email, or look at your drawings, or kill someone for you... I will (first whacking is free!). You're my very valuable friend (no, really, how much ransom would your mom pay for you

[bouncy_erbear]

Well don't think you aren't the only one who tries to help. I mean my life is going pretty good so I try and do the same to help others...it's just that we're caring people and stuff Brendan it's nothing to feel bad about.

Then again I have days like that where I just want to scream the f-word too since I have no boyfriend, school work drives me insane, and my friends are sad. It sucks I know. We're here for you too though.

Just know that it works both ways...you're here for us and we're there for you.

I love you Bren and I hope you don't forget that you are a great guy and should feel good that you are able to help others.

Ciao okay.

<3 erica

[bouncy_erbear]

and my number is 8330101 case you need it irish boy! *wink*

[celtic_ronin]

I love all of you guys. I feel so much better now.