I do wish that I did, especially recently. It'd be nice to put current feelings and thoughts I have out there without fear of creating conflict within my social sphere (especially some things I feel about my relationship). Things where I have thoughts that I just need a supportive space to sort them out in, but don't necessarily have anyone immediate who I could talk to because of the "OMG dire!!" conclusions they might jump to... if that makes sense.
But I like feedback, and I agree that I don't have anything really worthwhile to say that would draw entirely anonymous people.
It's not so much that I think I don't have anything worthwhile to say. It's more that I don't seem to have the ability to write those thoughts well and maintain a blog in a manner that would inspire return-readership, you know? Not to mention, to inspire readership I would have to somehow "market" the new blog and that just feels like a whole lot of work... and for what purpose, exactly?
Around this blog I think I just sort of vomit my thoughts onto the page :D
Bah, by worthwhile I meant... what you just said :) You are at least better at words than I am...
I feel like a "professional" type blog would take a lot of time. I've been mulling doing one for theatre, but right now just don't have enough to say coherently on the subject or the time to say it in. Plus I can't think up a nifty enough name.
My biggest problem is just that I have too many interests, so I find it hard to focus on any of them... each time I've tried to start a blog for just one thing, it winds up neglected as my focus bounces around all my various interests.
I had a lot of this some years ago... and finally just gave in to my desire to be open while writing. This is who I am. This is who my friends know me as. I'm a loudmouth, I can be a bitch, I can be opininated... and that isn't something about myself I want to hide. If my friends disagree, we can have a conversation about it without freaking out. If we can't, then I think that's less of a "me opening my mouth" problem and more of a "general incompatibility" problem.
People you know may disagree with you, yes, and they may talk with you about it... some may make it awkward but I doubt it, most of our friends are more mature than that. :) There are tons of issues I disagree with on friends, or I'm more or less militant than others, but it doesn't mean we can't talk. I learn just as much from them as I hope they learn from me. What's a friendship if you can't have discussions about what's important to both of you? :)
I totally agree with you... and that's how I feel in person. It's the writing/blogging thing that gets me feeling all bottled up. I guess it's the lack of tone, or something. I don't know. In person I feel frustrated that I don't have as much time to put my thoughts together and find my sources... but at least you can get a vibe from one another, you know?
I know what you mean. :) And I know how conflicted this feels, but once you do decide to let go of the idea that someone might disagree and accept that it may happen... you feel way better
Sometimes I'm tempted to just write one of those "25-things" style posts where I just write down every big opinion I have, just to get it all out in the open.
I think this is all a symptom of generally caring too much what other people think of me, and just wanting people to like me. And it nags at me because I know it's kind of silly (because A) why should I care, and B) my friends are pretty unlikely to dump me because we differ on our opinions on things like religion or whatever.)
Another topic that I could ramble on and on and on about! I maintain a blog that isn't read by anyone - rather, a written journal that I keep to myself. I also maintain several blogs that are anonymous. Some people have figured out the identity but then again, those channels were for my future. I have a vast web presence - far more vast from before we worked together - so I am worried about the "Google search" that HR performs when recruiting
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You know, I used to keep a paper journal... from the time I was about 11 until I was about 22. And then I stopped, completely. I'm not sure why. I remember being in counseling for a while and talking about it with her, and she said something to the effect of, "the person you spoke to when you were writing... that was like a friend to you. Do you miss her?" I know that sounds weird but honestly the answer was, "yes." I've tried to pick it up again now and then but I can't seem to get back into it.
I think it was something I did to combat loneliness and boredom... as life's gone on, I've gotten so much busier, and become part of this long-term relationship... I don't know, it just seemed like I got too busy for it. Mentally, I guess.
I'm not sure if I find relief from it anymore. I used to, back when I was younger. I think that was back when I didn't care quite as much what other people thought. I was probably more honest.
I don't mean to imply that I'm dishonest here, at all. More just that sometimes what I really want my blog to
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No, no, not at all! I promise you, completely unrelated. I didn't feel heated about that entry at all, I find it fascinating and it was so cool because just as you wrote it I'd been at a lunch where we'd talked about so many things that intersected with what you were talking about. And further, that isn't a topic that I feel really heated up about in general... I feel just as conflicted about it as you do, sometimes
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But I like feedback, and I agree that I don't have anything really worthwhile to say that would draw entirely anonymous people.
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It's not so much that I think I don't have anything worthwhile to say. It's more that I don't seem to have the ability to write those thoughts well and maintain a blog in a manner that would inspire return-readership, you know? Not to mention, to inspire readership I would have to somehow "market" the new blog and that just feels like a whole lot of work... and for what purpose, exactly?
Around this blog I think I just sort of vomit my thoughts onto the page :D
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I feel like a "professional" type blog would take a lot of time. I've been mulling doing one for theatre, but right now just don't have enough to say coherently on the subject or the time to say it in. Plus I can't think up a nifty enough name.
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My biggest problem is just that I have too many interests, so I find it hard to focus on any of them... each time I've tried to start a blog for just one thing, it winds up neglected as my focus bounces around all my various interests.
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People you know may disagree with you, yes, and they may talk with you about it... some may make it awkward but I doubt it, most of our friends are more mature than that. :)
There are tons of issues I disagree with on friends, or I'm more or less militant than others, but it doesn't mean we can't talk. I learn just as much from them as I hope they learn from me. What's a friendship if you can't have discussions about what's important to both of you? :)
*edited for a Freudian spelling error.
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And I know how conflicted this feels, but once you do decide to let go of the idea that someone might disagree and accept that it may happen... you feel way better
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Sometimes I'm tempted to just write one of those "25-things" style posts where I just write down every big opinion I have, just to get it all out in the open.
I think this is all a symptom of generally caring too much what other people think of me, and just wanting people to like me. And it nags at me because I know it's kind of silly (because A) why should I care, and B) my friends are pretty unlikely to dump me because we differ on our opinions on things like religion or whatever.)
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I think it was something I did to combat loneliness and boredom... as life's gone on, I've gotten so much busier, and become part of this long-term relationship... I don't know, it just seemed like I got too busy for it. Mentally, I guess.
I'm not sure if I find relief from it anymore. I used to, back when I was younger. I think that was back when I didn't care quite as much what other people thought. I was probably more honest.
I don't mean to imply that I'm dishonest here, at all. More just that sometimes what I really want my blog to ( ... )
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