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centeruniverse

Averted heart attack

Feb 01, 2005 00:11

I just spent about half an hour looking for the tickets for my sister's and my trip to Denmark during Spring Break. I was convinced I'd somehow managed to recycle them, and that I'd need to spend another $1,400 to get replacements ( Read more... )

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misery_chick February 1 2005, 09:50:28 UTC

Honey, I'm here for you - even though in a far away and not able to help kind of way. I really hope you're coping with it. And please stop blaming yourself. You didn't screw up anything. I really hope you're ok as you can be, if you need me I'll be here.

Now I can ask: You're coming to Denmark? Only Denmark or do you plan a little Europe tour? I mean Denmark isn't that far away, you could always add a few days in Bochum - both Sophie and I would offer you our flats to stay in, I'm sure.

centeruniverse February 1 2005, 18:14:06 UTC

*smiles* Thank you. I'm not blaming myself for the actual break up (that really was all Keith) but more for getting back together with him again when obviously he wasn't ready for it. But I appreciate knowing that you're there, even if the only way I can really talk to you is through letters, email, and LJ.

My sister and I are going to Denmark to visit our Mormor during Spring Break. We'll only be there about 4.5 days, so I doubt I'll be able to visit you two. :-( I am still trying to figure out when I'll be able to take the time and have the money to do my grand European tour, though...

misery_chick February 1 2005, 18:17:34 UTC

Oh, I'm sorry to hear that. I was already making plans what we could do when you're here (not that I had great ideas or something, I just had some thoughts in my head). But some day then :-)

And I wish there was a way of coming over to you and talking face to face.

centeruniverse February 1 2005, 18:41:36 UTC

Definitely some day. Whenever I make it over to Europe for a tour instead of a quick family visit, I will definitely visit you!

And I wish you could come over and see me too! We'd sit around eating Ben & Jerry's and talking about all sorts of silly stuff.

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centeruniverse February 1 2005, 18:18:50 UTC

I'm actually kind of done with ranting. (Okay, so if someone prompts me, I'll probably start ranting again, but I don't have any drive to do so on my own) More than anything, I just kind of...regret the whole situation, if that makes sense? I keep thinking that, at a different time or under different conditions, things might have worked, but now I'm having to accept the possibilty that it just might never work out between him and me. That's a hard idea to swallow, because I've fought against it so long ( ... )

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centeruniverse February 1 2005, 18:53:20 UTC

I guess...*sigh* It just...sucks. We've been through this whole cycle so many times, you'd think we would have figured it out by now. Maybe we just never will. And that's the hard part.

Not everyone is Keith. Check. I think I knew that already...it's just knowing that someone I trust and love as much as I did for him could do what he's done to me...it means that sometimes, my trust and love is worth nothing. I'm not sure how I'm going to deal with that yet.

And, you know, you know how to reach me, too...didn't we have a call scheduled some time this week?

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:x ithisia February 1 2005, 15:21:46 UTC

Lousy.
*hugs* Do take care!
If there is anything I can do; don't hesitate to ask.
If there's anything I can NOT do; don't hesitate to ask ;)

-Angela

Re: :x centeruniverse February 1 2005, 18:00:09 UTC

*grins* Thanks. Right now, there's not much anyone can do, I think, and I'm suprised at how well I'm handling it. If you wanted to get together again sometime in the next few weeks (but not this week, I think) that would be very nice.

ladydewinter February 1 2005, 15:42:11 UTC

*hugs*

I hope you are okay. If there is anything I can do, let me know. And I second Jessica's question about you coming to Denmark.

<3

centeruniverse February 1 2005, 18:21:02 UTC

*smiles* I don't think there's much you can do, except maybe wish me well, which you're already doing. But I'm really feeling much better than I expected.

As for Denmark, it's a short trip for me and my sister to see our Mormor during Spring Break. We'll only be there about 4.5 days, so I don't think I'll be able to take you up on a visit...yet. I will visit you two someday....

ladydewinter February 1 2005, 21:53:09 UTC

But I'm really feeling much better than I expected.
I'm glad to hear that <3

I will visit you two someday....
I certainly hope so!

lucy_lupin February 1 2005, 15:52:56 UTC

*hugs* At least you found the tickets, and sorry about your break-up.

centeruniverse February 1 2005, 18:22:53 UTC

Yeah, I think if I hadn't found the tickets, I probably would have just given up on life for a few days...not gone to class, not gone to work, not left the apartment...wow, that sounds really appealing...

But, actually, I'm kind of okay right now. Partly because I've got so much to do that I don't have to think about it all the time, and also because...I'm strong enough to deal with it, apparently. The first night was terrible, but now...I'm getting over it. I was over him before he came back, and apparently it's not too hard to get back to that state.