but everybody can just fucking die

Sooooo. Today is day one of being sober. It hasnt been bad at all, but I feel like I have this mass amount of time now. I can do it, and I will. The only thing that can stop me from what I want to do is me and Ill be damned if im going to let that happen ( Read more... )

Today was ASOME!!! Me and Jess got to hang out. Dosnt happen that often so its allways welcome. We got Mexican and I ate none of them due to the horrible fish sticks I had for breakfast (Yeah for breakfast!! I put some milk on that shit) Cleaned my room once again. Went to paul and Jens. I miss both of them, hell I miss all my friends. Its like im ( Read more... )

So im 19. I can now legally buy cigarettes. Life is being as confusing as ever and I see no end to the confusion. Its hard to say what I want, seeing as how I don't know myself. Its Summer and it seems like things should be going on all over the place. Ive turned into a hermit and I blame it on myself. I think a change of scenery would do me some ( Read more... )

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The clock hits 1:30, I sit here trying to think of constructive things to do tomarrow in my off day. I should do laundry, I should clean my room. I want to go to Sloss, I want to take pictures and play dnd. Being responsible is such a downer hah. The responsible thing would be to cut my dread locks off, something I simply cant bring myself to do. I ( Read more... )

I just woke up at 4:35, I'm trying to wake up earlier but its a hard feat to accomplish when you go to sleep at 6 in the morning. For a good reason though. I got called in to work early yesterday and showed up at 4:30 but I cant complain about that, I need money. After I got off work the night was most sexelent. Went to my friends from works party ( Read more... )

So today was GODDAMN asome.... woke up at 10 IN THE MORNING and went rock climbing with Aarin, Bob, Ry, Wade and Sar. While out at the boulder fields Sar brought us two large pizza's from bakers (delicious). Then i went and got some stuff, it was good. Went to work and got to expand to salads witch owns, my boss was super happy witch is extremly ( Read more... )

The day started great, woke up at 3 and then went to go jam with Brenden and Troy and this dood Justin. Was crazy, we had two bass players. Well after that we showed up to work two and a half hours late. They didnt care because we dont suck. It was a long night of swining chainsaws as usual. Scared countless people and Troys grrl friend even got ( Read more... )

Ahh october.. a crazy time for me. Ive had three off days this month and get no more. I work at sloss rain, sleet or shine. Cut to the point, im fucking exhausted. I hurt myself accidently atleast 3 times a night, its been fun but trying ( Read more... )