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[cepheus1024]

I feel so lost. So lost. I feel abandoned and betrayed and taken advantage of...and selfish. I don’t know whether to be upset with others or upset with myself, and in turn, I am both. I am so tired but I can’t sleep. There’s too much stuff congesting my mind...

I wish things were different-I wish I was different. I want to be a regular guy; I want

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[achipiquonque]

The truth? Girls don't really want bad boys. They want security, above all. Friendship is the beginning of a meaningful relationship. Don't give up. It's not the end of your life. I had to wait until I was in college to have my first ever boyfriend, and he's a sensitive, wonderful guy, just like girls always "say" they want. Girls who go for "bad boys" are stupid and aren't worth your time anyway.

[cepheus1024]

thank you so much for the lovely words of encouragement. =) this is probably the first time i've actually read over this journal entry and i am very embarrassed about it. it's a really selfish entry. often times i write to clear my head because it helps me understand what i'm thinking a whole lot better then letting it swell in my brain until it all comes gushing out in a fit of rage and/or angry confusion. when i wrote this, i was at a very low spot in my life...and i was very upset with God. i am so embarrassed about it now. how can you be so upset with someone who has given up so much for you and promises you that He's doing everything for your own personal welfare? all He has done is for me and i repay Him with anger. makes sense to me, how about you? =) but I'm over that hurdle with His gracious help and am not the depressed maniac that my journal reflects to this point. anyway, thank you again for your encouraging words, they mean a lot...

[achipiquonque]

You're welcome. :)

I don't think it's wrong to get angry in general sometimes. Everyone argues with God at some point. The only time you're in trouble is when you feel like you've won.

I'm happy to hear that you're doing better now.