tanner = <3
today i spent the afternoon at tanner's house.
he picked me up around 1:15, gave me three cd's: a happy birthday mix, and two modest mouse cd's he burned (good news... and building nothing out of something), and the peter pan dvd, AND some roses. Yes, it's true. Tanner is quite possibly the sweetest person EVAR. so we went to his house, watched amelie (liz!!), then he drove me home..
when he was driving me home, we had to talk about him leaving and everything. i assured him i'd be fine (lies) and explained exactly how it will be: he'll leave. I'll cry for a week (that's just a rough estimate, though), then I'll date someone to rebound (but he made me promise not Matt again), and then I'd be fine once I dumped my rebound. That's my side of the bargain. My prediction for him would be he'd leave and find someone and be very happy.
I'm happy for him, that he's going to college and everything, the only thing is that I know he's going to be so happy, and I just wish I could share that with him, ya know? Nevermind, I'm just babbling. I'm frustrated right now. I wish there was some easy solution to make this transition go over well, but I know there isn't, but like "take me to the hospital" by the faint says, "anything worth doing is worth getting hurt for." I like that line, and that's kind of the way I live.
So what's in store for Lauren in the next few days/weeks? Nothing fun. Except that I'll have Jamie here, for, as I told Tanner, "Misery loves company." So true.
Ah, I've rambled enough.
Regardless of my frustration with how to deal with him leaving, the afternoon with Tanner has left me with my head spinning and with me sitting on top of the world. What an absolute sweetheart :) :)
xoxo
he picked me up around 1:15, gave me three cd's: a happy birthday mix, and two modest mouse cd's he burned (good news... and building nothing out of something), and the peter pan dvd, AND some roses. Yes, it's true. Tanner is quite possibly the sweetest person EVAR. so we went to his house, watched amelie (liz!!), then he drove me home..
when he was driving me home, we had to talk about him leaving and everything. i assured him i'd be fine (lies) and explained exactly how it will be: he'll leave. I'll cry for a week (that's just a rough estimate, though), then I'll date someone to rebound (but he made me promise not Matt again), and then I'd be fine once I dumped my rebound. That's my side of the bargain. My prediction for him would be he'd leave and find someone and be very happy.
I'm happy for him, that he's going to college and everything, the only thing is that I know he's going to be so happy, and I just wish I could share that with him, ya know? Nevermind, I'm just babbling. I'm frustrated right now. I wish there was some easy solution to make this transition go over well, but I know there isn't, but like "take me to the hospital" by the faint says, "anything worth doing is worth getting hurt for." I like that line, and that's kind of the way I live.
So what's in store for Lauren in the next few days/weeks? Nothing fun. Except that I'll have Jamie here, for, as I told Tanner, "Misery loves company." So true.
Ah, I've rambled enough.
Regardless of my frustration with how to deal with him leaving, the afternoon with Tanner has left me with my head spinning and with me sitting on top of the world. What an absolute sweetheart :) :)
xoxo