So, my day was....
So I’ve had an all around shitty day…well I guess week, but whatever. So today was just stupid. We had rehearsal this morning and that was nice. I really like our Christmas show and that makes me able to get into it. But I hate that song. And I wish that we could have made up solos and done that audition thing, I think that would have been fun, but oh well.
Okay so then there’s Pre-Cal, which is always fine, but I got a B on a paper…meh.
Next I had Mrs. Thrasher, and you know everyone is just annoyed by that class now. Sometimes it’s funny how fucking juvenile some adults can be. This teacher came from teaching something like nine years at a middle school, to teaching juniors in high school. I don’t know about you, but I did a good amount of maturing in between the eighth grade and the eleventh. Unfortunately, she’s still stuck back in middle school. She doesn’t seem to understand that we are not fucking twelve anymore. I mean the first day it was funny and everyone laughed, but fuck. When your teacher is spouting of sexual innuendos and profanities every two seconds, and trying to turn every fucking thing she says into something perverted, it’s very likely that you are going to loose respect for that individual. So she decides to “yell” at the class and that got us nowhere. And personally it only got me angry. See Mrs. Thrasher is one of those people who always have to be talking…yeah, that’s not so good. Every time we watch a movie (which by the way is annoyingly often) someone will be talking, she’ll get pissed off and start talking really loudly to the entire class, when most of the time someone was just making a stupid comment about the fucking movie (which just proves that they were doing what they were supposed to be doing and actually watching.) And generally when she interrupts the movie to tell us these things, there is absolutely no disturbance and everyone is actually trying to watch the movie. So yeah that set her off today. Someone said something during the movie. Oooo that’s never happened before. I’m fucking shocked. Okay so she stopped the movie and “yelled” about how we are always talking, and what not, and then gets frustrated when we try to…. I don’t know… answer her argument. You know I’ve always been taught to debate your beliefs but if you don’t fucking let us then what? Pretty much she wouldn’t let us say anything in response to her. So I waited until she had finished a thought and completely stopped talking to say something because I get interrupted and cut-off all the time at my house because my family seems to think that somehow to interrupt isn’t rude. So you know I waited, trying to be polite and maybe get a word in edge-wise, but every word I said was cut-off or interrupted by none other than our inconsiderate teacher. Ashlee thought it was really funny because the point I was trying to get across is that she never lets us answer back to what she says (when adults do this to kids/teenagers, it’s generally because they don’t want to be proven wrong) and she was only proving my point by trying to cut me off. But you know I was also taught to speak up for myself and to stand up for me, so no, some inconsiderate, self-righteous, teacher is not going to make me back down. And after I tried to say something to her she turned the argument to focus on me. Okay, so what, I talk a lot in that class. I guess mostly because Adam says a lot of things that I agree with so I respond, but fuck, I do her work and I’m passing her class (not like it’s hard when she gives you all the answers to the tests right before the test) with a high A, what more does she want?
So then at lunch I was telling some people what had just happened, and I don’t know but my friends should know by now that when people interrupt me over and over again like Mrs. Thrasher did, I get really pissed off. This is all because of my family interrupting me all of the time. Anyway in the middle of telling my friends all of this, I said something like ‘you guys know how much that pisses me off…’ and I knew that one of my friends was going to be an idiot and start interrupting me right then, and so it was Willie. So him and I fight a lot, well debate I guess, but he was being stupid, I mean to say that he would bring up a point and I would ask him to explain his position a little more and he would call me ‘impossible.’ He told me that it was ‘useless’ to even talk to me sometimes. I mean fuck. My friends really do hate me. Well I guess they aren’t my friends if this is what they think of me. And the other day with that OC thing, but I’ll talk about that later, I want to finish my day. So I left the cafeteria and went to the band room, just to get away from a stubborn Willie, and the thought that these people that I love might hate me.
So next was flags class…I was having a good time. Like I said I like the Christmas show and I feel like I’m pretty good at it. So we were practicing while Mr. Paquin and Gaby were talking, and when they came out we had to sit down and get another lecture about something so petty and stupid, not to mention something that I’m tried of hearing about. So we wasted like half of the class on that. And when we finally started rehearsal again Gaby says she decided that the girl that was cut, because she didn’t attend the practice was going to get the solo (that was supposed to be chosen out of a hat). Okay so there are a couple things wrong with this: A) You are rewarding a negative behavior with a positive consequence. At least I’ve always thought that solos went to those who deserved them you know like a reward, not the people who make are convenient…I don’t know, and B) If you clear something with a group of people and then change your mind, you should… I don’t know ask those people for their input on the new idea, or at least tell them before you make your decision. All my life I’ve done what was asked of me, and sat there and watched people how didn’t meet requirements or whatever get all of the rewards. And it just pisses me off. It’s not even really the fact that I would like to get a solo sometime, but it’s the principle. When you go out drinking when your 16 and the cops catch you, are they going to take your liquor and then hand you back your cup?
So then golf is next. I don’t really like the class itself we/I get yelled at, or someone gets made fun of, and we never go golfing anymore. I think really I just don’t get along very well with coach. So coach had our grades and I asked to see mine even though he told me I was passing. I asked because I don’t think that I’m passing by very much and that’s not good. And coach fucking took it as me being selfish because he was “helping” (I use quotes because when I asked, the girl was asking to see her grades too, so you know she didn’t mind, but what ever) a girl who wasn’t passing with the same things that he needed to help me with because I have oh I don’t know ten zeros in one of my classes that I’m trying to make up.
So after he called me a selfish whore I left in a bad mood, and now I’m here. Sitting at home. Taking an hour of my life to sit here and explain my day because I think it will make me feel better. So on the list of people that have made me feel like shit this week there are like four names, and unfortunately two of those are names of my friends. That’s sad. I wish that maybe those people would make an effort to get to know me better so that I don’t feel like shit because of their words or actions toward me, and I will try to do the same, because there is no reason to get in four fights in the span of one school day.
I just feel so helpless.
Oh yeah and P.S. this is an advance apology to any one who someday I will interrupt. I’m sorry.
P.S.S. Thanks for reading my day/rant