Tending to the sores that stay
A really long entry and so I don't kill your friends page
Well I was going to wait to update this thing when I finally posted all the icons I have been working on in my other journal, but since I seems to be sporadically working on them and am a procrastinator to boot, who knows when that will be. I really need to get a paid account or something, I keep removing icons to post others and then when I want to use an old one but not remove a new one i can't, or whatever..
..anyways, but ranting about icons isn't want I wanted to post about..
Just basically really bored, since my computer isn't fast enough to run GW anymore, and pretty much almost everything has lost its interest for me on the net (yes even ::gasp:: neopets) because my comp is too slow to run iTunes, AIM and the internet all at the same time without taking flipping forever to get to the page. Hence the intermitantly making icons, then reading a bit, then cross-stitching a bit, then surfing some more and so forth..
To anyone that hasn't talked to me yet, and remembers about my reckless ticket; went to court this past friday. Due to my "excellent driving record" or something to that effect, the judge reduced my ticket to speeding, charged me a 75 dollar fine plus court costs, all on the condition that I take this driver improvement class. I guess they now offer the class online, which is how I am doing it, since in person its like anywhere from 45 to 75 dollars and is 8 hours on a saturday. By taking it online I can go at my own speed and whatever. Problem is that there is a timer on the webpage and you are supposed to spend at least 35 seconds on each page in order to maintain the 8 hours is supposed to take. Thing is that I read at a much faster speed then the average joe and since a lot of pages only have like one or two paragraphs on them it takes me shorter then 35 seconds, and when i hit next it tells me i read to fast and that i need to go back and reread it. So thats no fun..
Been working a lot lately, pretty much 8 hour shifts everytime I am working, which is good in the sense that I am making money and so forth, but I really need to get out of it. So many people are leaving, and for some reason I though I was making 7.50 an hour rather then the 7.25 i really am making and its just so depressing knowing how much work i am putting in for how much I am actually getting paid. I went by Costco the other day to get an application, but all their applications are online so thats another thing I am working on.. I hear its starting 9.00 an hour over there, so thats an improvement, plus they close at 8:30 during the weeks and 6 on weekends, so thats nice. If I don't get a job with them come end of August I am probably going to look into waitressing somewhere near the school. I can't stay working at Kohl's, not even just cuz it sucks there anymore, but because with rent and everything there is no way I am going to be able to make enough money to support myself without working 30+ hours a week, and I can't work that much and take two difficult science classes. Hence looking elsewhere...
So like I said, been working a lot lately.. today was my first day off since last friday, was pretty good. Slept a lot, pretty much making up for my lack of sleep.. got up took my car to wal-mart to get my tire fixed, found out that it wasn't damaged or anything, which was good in that it didn't cost me any money, but I still can't figure out how it managed to get as flat at it did. Went to Kohl's in Stafford with my mom and bought some new and interesting clothes for disney in more colors then just black and grey(though she did buy me this prettyful skirt and top that are very much my style and piratey :-D)..
Other then that my day has pretty much been not busy.. and thats where it kinda sucks.. when I am not busy or doing things, I think too much.. and thinking is never good for me.. especially when I am alone and have no one to talk to.. it reminds me of when I was back at Maryland and on the weekends how i felt like i was so alone even though I was in a building of hundreds of people, that whole alone in a crowd thing.. ::sigh:: I wish I was one of those people who could just call people just to say hey, whats up, cuz if I did that I know i would have quiet a few people I could talk to or whatever.. but thats not me, and because of that I feel like i have fallen out of touch with so many people..
Ok well.. now this isn't helping anymore.. so I think I am going to go back to making icons now or something...
I miss my Chris.. I feel so alone..
Well I was going to wait to update this thing when I finally posted all the icons I have been working on in my other journal, but since I seems to be sporadically working on them and am a procrastinator to boot, who knows when that will be. I really need to get a paid account or something, I keep removing icons to post others and then when I want to use an old one but not remove a new one i can't, or whatever..
..anyways, but ranting about icons isn't want I wanted to post about..
Just basically really bored, since my computer isn't fast enough to run GW anymore, and pretty much almost everything has lost its interest for me on the net (yes even ::gasp:: neopets) because my comp is too slow to run iTunes, AIM and the internet all at the same time without taking flipping forever to get to the page. Hence the intermitantly making icons, then reading a bit, then cross-stitching a bit, then surfing some more and so forth..
To anyone that hasn't talked to me yet, and remembers about my reckless ticket; went to court this past friday. Due to my "excellent driving record" or something to that effect, the judge reduced my ticket to speeding, charged me a 75 dollar fine plus court costs, all on the condition that I take this driver improvement class. I guess they now offer the class online, which is how I am doing it, since in person its like anywhere from 45 to 75 dollars and is 8 hours on a saturday. By taking it online I can go at my own speed and whatever. Problem is that there is a timer on the webpage and you are supposed to spend at least 35 seconds on each page in order to maintain the 8 hours is supposed to take. Thing is that I read at a much faster speed then the average joe and since a lot of pages only have like one or two paragraphs on them it takes me shorter then 35 seconds, and when i hit next it tells me i read to fast and that i need to go back and reread it. So thats no fun..
Been working a lot lately, pretty much 8 hour shifts everytime I am working, which is good in the sense that I am making money and so forth, but I really need to get out of it. So many people are leaving, and for some reason I though I was making 7.50 an hour rather then the 7.25 i really am making and its just so depressing knowing how much work i am putting in for how much I am actually getting paid. I went by Costco the other day to get an application, but all their applications are online so thats another thing I am working on.. I hear its starting 9.00 an hour over there, so thats an improvement, plus they close at 8:30 during the weeks and 6 on weekends, so thats nice. If I don't get a job with them come end of August I am probably going to look into waitressing somewhere near the school. I can't stay working at Kohl's, not even just cuz it sucks there anymore, but because with rent and everything there is no way I am going to be able to make enough money to support myself without working 30+ hours a week, and I can't work that much and take two difficult science classes. Hence looking elsewhere...
So like I said, been working a lot lately.. today was my first day off since last friday, was pretty good. Slept a lot, pretty much making up for my lack of sleep.. got up took my car to wal-mart to get my tire fixed, found out that it wasn't damaged or anything, which was good in that it didn't cost me any money, but I still can't figure out how it managed to get as flat at it did. Went to Kohl's in Stafford with my mom and bought some new and interesting clothes for disney in more colors then just black and grey(though she did buy me this prettyful skirt and top that are very much my style and piratey :-D)..
Other then that my day has pretty much been not busy.. and thats where it kinda sucks.. when I am not busy or doing things, I think too much.. and thinking is never good for me.. especially when I am alone and have no one to talk to.. it reminds me of when I was back at Maryland and on the weekends how i felt like i was so alone even though I was in a building of hundreds of people, that whole alone in a crowd thing.. ::sigh:: I wish I was one of those people who could just call people just to say hey, whats up, cuz if I did that I know i would have quiet a few people I could talk to or whatever.. but thats not me, and because of that I feel like i have fallen out of touch with so many people..
Ok well.. now this isn't helping anymore.. so I think I am going to go back to making icons now or something...
I miss my Chris.. I feel so alone..