thank you for the words of support - i think the biggest hurdle for me is to be honest, more so with myself about how i feel. i like my small victories - i just don't like the feeling of not being able to 'fix' something with them, they are too small, too insignificant and honestly don't matter to many other people outside my head.
yeah, i know that they should amount to something but like most small things, they tend to get pushed to the side or ignored when a larger issue is presented. i agree with you, its not the people outside my head (tho they scare me too!) but the ones inside my head that fuck you up!
Im miles away and have no idea what's wrong or whom your talking about, but want to send love and good energy. sorry to hear you are down. I will always be here even if it's through e-mail miles and miles away. love at kimmy girl dot org
Writing a journal for yourself sounds like a great idea. I still physically write in one, and oddly enough it helps to get it down and out. Just make sure no one gets it....because it might hurt other people which probably isn't your intention. I know what you mean about not trusting anyone, because I have trouble in that area too. Maybe it's the scorpio in both of us. Once you do find someone you think you can begin to trust or feel like they aren't judging you (I feel like everyone always judges me) then you should totally confide in them. You are so loved by many people!!! I hope you feel better sooner than later. <3
I love you Lori, and you are always welcome to call me whenever. I miss you and as far as i am away, I still feel very close to you and love you immensely. Writing to yourself helps, at least, it does me, even if only when I look back at it. You should keep writing, and maybe you'll reach a point where you can just spill your guts to and for yourself.
I have no idea how it is, but it looked worth a try. Would you like to be part of a two-person book club and read it with me? Maybe it'll be useful, maybe it will be uninformed or off the mark, in which case we can call it names and have an audience.
lol I'd be interested in working through it with someone else. My mother gave me 'Discover yourself journaling something or other book' but I didn't synch with it. It was too general and vague that I just didn't buy into it. It's been years since I journaled outside LJ or another online entity - and those old entires were very helpful...the new shit I'm turning out seems to be just a rundown on activities and not a lot of emotion. I need to figure out how to get that back out of me.
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sorry to hear you are down.
I will always be here even if it's through e-mail miles and miles away. love at kimmy girl dot org
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things are getting there - thank you for the good thoughts and energy. when the days get gray, it helps :)
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FWIW, two books. One: The Self-Esteem Guided Journal. It's pretty cannily put together. The other:
http://www.amazon.com/Unstuck-Guide-Seven-Stage-Journey-Depression/dp/1594201668/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1228201787&sr=8-1
I have no idea how it is, but it looked worth a try. Would you like to be part of a two-person book club and read it with me? Maybe it'll be useful, maybe it will be uninformed or off the mark, in which case we can call it names and have an audience.
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lol I'd be interested in working through it with someone else. My mother gave me 'Discover yourself journaling something or other book' but I didn't synch with it. It was too general and vague that I just didn't buy into it. It's been years since I journaled outside LJ or another online entity - and those old entires were very helpful...the new shit I'm turning out seems to be just a rundown on activities and not a lot of emotion. I need to figure out how to get that back out of me.
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