Been awhile.
Whoo! Have I been a busy Channa lately.
College- I love it. I absolutlely love it. Everyone there is so much different than the people in my highschool was, perhaps I just haven't met them evil people yet. Everyone seems so collected and not so judgemental. I've made some friends already. Not GREAT OMG BESTFRIEND kind of friends, but people who actually drift to me to come talk to me.
I have two classes right now since I can't afford to rush into full time just yet. Interpersonal relations and composition. So far, both of the teachers are really awesome and I don't even realize that I've been sitting in class for three hours. So far I've had two assignments and one was actually disguised as three. It amused me that in reality I had four assignments. I finished them all by Sunday morning, even though the Interpersonal Relations isn't due till this Sunday. I like feeling good about class instead of nervous because I don't have my homework done.
I have to thank all my friends who helped me gather the courage to finally grow up and start my life again. This is for everyone, even if you don't talk to me anymore. ^^;;;
Self confidence- I am actually liked in college. People think I'm funny and want to group with me when we are forced to make groups. I was suprised and it made me feel very motivated to stay and be myself instead of balling my personality up in a safe and locking it up for three hours. For once I feel smart and that I can actually do this.
My interpersonal relations class has helped a lot to. The class seems to be helping me understand myself and my dad.
Dad- Appperently he thinks I do not love him anymore. -_- I don't call him, yes. But I'm scared to. I'm scared that he will pop this huge happy bubble that I have built around myself. So instead I've decided that I will write him a letter hopefully once a week, maybe once a day if I get the courage to do it that often. I figured this way I can avoid the anger he builds and just try and get him into a better state of mind. I want him to be happy so much. I want him to get out and live a little and I want him most of all to be himself again before life took away the old him. I miss my dad, the dad from four years ago. The dad who showed some faith in me . . Who was there . . . who was sober.
Home life- Nate and I are working so hard to get this place even better than it was so that we can get this house sold. I guess I'm motivated and lately I don't like sleeping past 6 in the morning. I get things done now.
Steve- Well, his girlfriend cheated on him awhile back. -_- And he forgave her. They broke up, but she is still here like a parasite sucking all the energy and Steve's heart away. >.< She has tried to improve, like by getting her own air mattress for here, but she is ALWAYS HERE. I can't breath. And Nathan is seriously taking this harder than Steve. Steve is a wonderful person, but he can be taken for granted and used so much. Nathan who has had five girlfriends cheat on him is baffled by how she is even still around no less acting like a happy girlfriend. Long story short. I wanna eat her heart with a side of orange sauce and a spork.
Well, That is the big update. ^^;;;
College- I love it. I absolutlely love it. Everyone there is so much different than the people in my highschool was, perhaps I just haven't met them evil people yet. Everyone seems so collected and not so judgemental. I've made some friends already. Not GREAT OMG BESTFRIEND kind of friends, but people who actually drift to me to come talk to me.
I have two classes right now since I can't afford to rush into full time just yet. Interpersonal relations and composition. So far, both of the teachers are really awesome and I don't even realize that I've been sitting in class for three hours. So far I've had two assignments and one was actually disguised as three. It amused me that in reality I had four assignments. I finished them all by Sunday morning, even though the Interpersonal Relations isn't due till this Sunday. I like feeling good about class instead of nervous because I don't have my homework done.
I have to thank all my friends who helped me gather the courage to finally grow up and start my life again. This is for everyone, even if you don't talk to me anymore. ^^;;;
Self confidence- I am actually liked in college. People think I'm funny and want to group with me when we are forced to make groups. I was suprised and it made me feel very motivated to stay and be myself instead of balling my personality up in a safe and locking it up for three hours. For once I feel smart and that I can actually do this.
My interpersonal relations class has helped a lot to. The class seems to be helping me understand myself and my dad.
Dad- Appperently he thinks I do not love him anymore. -_- I don't call him, yes. But I'm scared to. I'm scared that he will pop this huge happy bubble that I have built around myself. So instead I've decided that I will write him a letter hopefully once a week, maybe once a day if I get the courage to do it that often. I figured this way I can avoid the anger he builds and just try and get him into a better state of mind. I want him to be happy so much. I want him to get out and live a little and I want him most of all to be himself again before life took away the old him. I miss my dad, the dad from four years ago. The dad who showed some faith in me . . Who was there . . . who was sober.
Home life- Nate and I are working so hard to get this place even better than it was so that we can get this house sold. I guess I'm motivated and lately I don't like sleeping past 6 in the morning. I get things done now.
Steve- Well, his girlfriend cheated on him awhile back. -_- And he forgave her. They broke up, but she is still here like a parasite sucking all the energy and Steve's heart away. >.< She has tried to improve, like by getting her own air mattress for here, but she is ALWAYS HERE. I can't breath. And Nathan is seriously taking this harder than Steve. Steve is a wonderful person, but he can be taken for granted and used so much. Nathan who has had five girlfriends cheat on him is baffled by how she is even still around no less acting like a happy girlfriend. Long story short. I wanna eat her heart with a side of orange sauce and a spork.
Well, That is the big update. ^^;;;