Stuck

[chant_1]

In the mid-January doldrums, anyway. I have been reading lots, writing a little, but generally not feeling like I have much to say. But to keep myself from slipping into the black hole of non-blogging again, I'm just popping by to say hello

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[robinellen]

Our family has been very blessed to not have any cancer (on my husband's side or mine -- in any generation, thus far)...but one of my dearest friends fought breast cancer a few years ago (and won), so I do have a feel for what you're saying here. Prayers for your MIL, as well!

[chant_1]

Thanks, Robin. A cancer-free family is a blessing in this day and age where it seems to run rampant.

[ex_triciasu]

*HUGS*

Thinking of you. Very much owe you mail, but my kids seem to have been around constantly since...late November?? They go back to school, or one of them does, and then BOING, home again with this or that.

My aunt died of esophogal cancer several years ago, and what we learned then was that it's very rare to catch it early because it's 'silent'--symptomless until advanced in many cases. What a blessing that your MIL's diagnosis beat those odds! May her recovery be swift and full. It is amazing what they can do these days against cancer. I think you are smart and strong to bolster the optimism, but it's not surprising you feel off-kilter now. Being the strong one, the witness/helper, can be exhausting.

You're a star, you know that, right?

[ex_triciasu]

Thanks for this, Trish. I can relate to the kid thing - mine have been the same, but not from sickness, from snow. In fact, they are home again today, for the second time this week.

As for my MIL, it appears...that the hopeful diagnosis was either misunderstood or misreported. The cancer has spread to her lungs and liver. I don't know much more than that since it appears that out of either a wish for privacy, a lack of understanding, or a desire to protect her "children," we have not been getting the full story.

[chant_1]

WTF? That was me, obviously. Having a clueless morning. *sigh* Those are the best, when the kids are around. They will be all over me like lions on a sick wildebeest.

[ex_triciasu]

Oh, no.

I'm so sorry.

We had a horrible surge of false hope with my aunt, when the person she went to a consultation with misunderstood something the doctor said (in another room, to another person, about a full remission) and had us all hoping for the best. In fact, if you can recall the last time we were in the US in 2005? It was because we'd booked a trip to see my aunt and then found out the information was wrong and she wouldn't be well enough to see us, and we were stuck with the tickets.

I'm just...aching inside thinking of you all. E-mail me if you want to talk. Or if you have got Skype sorted out we could try that.

You are all in my heart.

[reneesweet]

So sorry to hear about your MIL. Sending wishes for a full and speedy recovery...

[reneesweet]

Thanks, Renee.

[chant_1]

Yeah, um...me, too.