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[chantingbrighid]

i hate myself for liking you...i hate that i think about you...i hate that i know that you exist...i hate that i compare everyone to you, or that when i look at someone else i think about how close or different from you they are...i hate that late at night i relive every time we talked and what i could have done, even though i may not even have

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[kurgan_lyonesse]

i wish i could help. but i also hate to inform you i have always found you interesting and pretty i am just smart enought to stay away because i know what i look like. so i can play the part i'm good at friend/older brother and odd guy who knows od thing who would make a good lifeline on who wants to be a millionare. i will say this again if there is ever anything i can do let me know.

[chantingbrighid]

i appreciate that...i also realize that i might have hurt your feelings, which i didn't mean to do at all...but it is very hard for me to view myself as anything more than what i view myself as, and quite frankly, i will block out any message contrary to what i believe if it helps me keep the reality that i have made for myself...but i do, honestly, appreciate your support and your comments...

[kurgan_lyonesse]

dear lady as i tell all of my friends it is almost immpossible for you to hurt my feeling without actually trying. i too have a dark mirror i look into when i see myself. again if you ever what to talk hang out or anything let me know as a bi-polar whackjob i have a unique perspective some of which may coincide with yours but may not. i ask nothing of my friends except to not actively hate me. so no worries. remember i love you as much as you let me :) and am happy with that.

[chantingbrighid]

we should defiantly chill sometime...if schedules ever coincide...