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so today was really good, in kind of a sad way, cuz i cried intensely about 4 times. no joke. it feels good though, and its not like i was crying for terrible reasons.
in spanish there was this adorable kitten (im sure most of you have heard about it through carrie taylor and my GUSHING), and i suddenly started thinking about zulu and how cute she was. then i just got this huge wave of missing her and i started to cry haha, but it wasnt like bad crying cuz i was crying about how cute and fun she was, you know? and then i realized how much i miss having a little bundle of fur around, and i decided that im like, "ready" to have another kitten (my mom and dad really want another one, theyve just been waiting for me to say ok) so that was a good little cry session. well, kind of embarressing cuz it was in class, but whatevs.
then i saw wicker park at sol's and i cried at the end cuz it was so happy...AH it was just really really good, no matter how confusing or wierd the actual content of it was. it seriously took sol and i SOOO much to figure out what was going on hahaha
then after the movie i told sol and lily about what happened in spanish class and i started to cry...again...hahaha wow. but it was okay because i was with them, so i didnt really care, and lily just continued to compliment my legs haha and sol kept giving me kisses which made me feel better. =)
and THEN, most intense part of all...i go to tay's and we're sitting there after carrie left and she shows me this country song...about a little poor boy who doesnt have enough money to buy his mom a pair of shoes on christmas eve, and shes sick so he wants her to look pretty when she meets jesus that night... AHHHHHHHH HOW SAD IS THAT!?!?!?!? the second i heard "shes probably gonna meet jesus tonight" (or whatever the lyrics were), i just like crumpled and let it all out, and tay and i were sobbing together. so we had a little sob-fest, and she told me about people whose parents have died that i had NO IDEA ABOUT and it was just like.....
omg. i never want my parents to die, EVER!
okay so um....yeah, i basically just described in detail why and how i CRIED today
and you all must think that im like, PMSing or something because im so emotional.
but IM NOT, i swear!
im just very sensitive to my inner soul today...
i never thought i would make a post like this hahahaha
whatever =)
♥