Because I need to stop thinking about it and do my work...
So since Thanksgiving a lot has been going on in the life of me. I found out where I'm going for Student Teaching (Salamanca, 5th grade/East View, Kindergarten), and I am finishing up the semester. I'm ready to go home, except for one little thing that's making me not want to.
The reason I don't want to go home is because there's this really cute guy who I'm pretty interested in, and who I'm really hoping is pretty interested in me as well.
Here's how I know he is (I think):
So last time I updated, the last thing that happened was plans to go to a movie after break. Soooo we randomly texted throughout the week, and decided that we wanted to see Brothers. However, I found out pretty soon after that that Carmike is as useless as anything I've ever come across in my life, and wasn't getting any new movies in that week. Sooo, plan b? The Blind Side.
So Friday came, and I was feeling nervous, but not too nervous, which I think is a really good thing. When I'm nervous, I act like an idiot. *foreshadows* Anyway, I showered and did my hair and got dressed. He showed up, and Alex let him inside. When I went out to the living room, he was with another guy, and I was like, ohai. Then he introduced the guy as his room mate, and as our chauffeur because his car was in the shop. So we go to the theater and he get tickets (which I don't let myself be as uncomfortable about as I usually am when people buy things for me), and we go and sit down. Then we just talked for a little bit about really random stuff like commercials and songs and other stuff. Then the movie started, so we really didn't talk after that. It was kinda awkward because we were sitting between two sets of middle-aged ladies and it was just...awkward. I know it's redundant, but I really have no other word for it, haha. So after the movie ended, we left the theater, and I went to the bathroom, where I checked all of my texts, because my silly friends had texted me lots of things. Then Alex had left me a voicemail so I checked that when we were walking out of the theater, and then Alex called me and everyone at home was screaming and being silly. Sooo then Scott's room mate came back and picked us up, and we went inside where I was accosted with the task of going back out and getting cups for pong. Soo I took Alex's keys and Scott and we went outside. Alex's lock was frozen so I left Scott outside and ran to get someone else's keys. We ended up going in Kevin's car and got some cups. When we got back, Scott's room mate (who had mysteriously disappeared before) came back and came inside with us.
We played a few games of pong and then they went to go hang out with some friends. We hung around some more, then decided to go out to bars. I stayed behind with Alex and Chris for a little bit while Kevin, Kristy, and Ruth got the bus to town. When the three of us finally got to the bar, I got a drink and found Scott. I hung out with him for most of the time I was there, which was fun. Then the bar closed so we left. He and his friends were going to Perkins, and SOMEHOW, I ended up there with them. It was something that would have been so awkward and uncomfortable for me if it had been any other time, probably, but it wasn't. I had a good time, and his friends made me giggle. Anyway, after that, his room mate drove us back to the th, and we all came back in. Most of my friends were asleep (I think). His room mate suddenly decided that he'd left his wallet in the car and needed to go get it. So Scott and I were just kinda standing there talking. Then his friend came back in and was like, "I just thought you'd want to know...I found my wallet." and then he basically told Scott to hurry up and he left again. So Scott and I chatted for a few more minutes, and then...we started kissing. At one point, he pulled away and goes, "So, yeah, I kinda like you." So I go, "Well that's good, because I kinda like you, too." Then he asked me when he could see me again, and I told him that he could whenever he wanted. So then he asked if he could come back the next day, and I said sure. We kissed a little bit more and then he left.
The next day, I went to help out with the Festival of Trees to get some LAP hours in. Toward the end of that, he texted me and said that he had another interview the next morning and didn't want to be lame and leave here early, so he wasn't going to come that night. He asked me if I wanted to meet him at the women's basketball game, so I said sure.
On Sunday, I went to go shower to get ready to go to the game (which was at 1), but then my mom called and wanted to talk to me for like 20 minutes. At any rate, I ended up getting to the game around half time, which I felt bad about. At first, I couldn't see him, so I just stood at the side of the gym for a few minutes. Then I saw where he was and went to go sit with him. He was with a few friends, one of whom was very surly and the other of whom was very loud, haha. After the game ended, we went to the RC and ended up sitting there for like 2 hours with one of his friends. It was...amusing. So we finally left there, and he drove me back to the TH and came inside. We talked for a little bit about how Ruthie cut down a tree with a bread knife and other random stuff, but then I had to go to a stupid dinner for FB and I had to leave. :( So then I grabbed my coat and walked outside with him, where we met with Brianne and Hillary. Brianne proceeds to open the window and go to him, "Hi! Who are you? Are you Scott?!?" and then telling him that she needs to approve of him, blah blah blah. Meanwhile, it's SO obvious that I've told them about him, so I'm pretty embarrassed and hoping he doesn't think I'm a freak. So then I have to get in the stupid car, so he walks around the back of it with me and then he goes, "Will it embarrass you more if I gave you a kiss goodbye?" And in my head I'm like HELL NO SIR KISS ME PLEASE but in real life I said No not at all and then we kissed and it was so cute. Meanwhile, behind me, I hear Brianne yelling in the car because she saw us kissing. So then we both left, and I went to the dumb dinner.
So last week, on Monday, I think, he texted me and told me that he was really glad that we got to hang out over the weekend. I told him that I liked hanging out with him, too. So then Alex told me that I should invite him to the BV party because it was at our house and he used to be a BV'er. She hijacked my phone and sent him a message telling him that he should come. He texted back later and said that he needed to see when he worked, but that he'd really like to get together again. He texted a few days later and said that he would have to work on Friday and asked if I wanted to go out on Saturday. I told him that that was the day we were doing all of our Christmas stuff, but that he should come over. Then he texted back saying that that was great, and we actually had a conversation through texting without waiting days in between! hahah I was so excited, I'm such a dork. Anyway, so then we talked about Christmas trees and the BV party and how BV'ers are awesome.
On Saturday, I texted him and asked him if he was still thinking about coming over later. He said that he definitely was, and that he was going to the game. So the rest of the day just went along as usual, and then people started coming over for the Christmas festivities. At around 8:30, he texted me, saying that he was gonna be over in about 10 minutes. So he ended up getting here at the same time as Katie and I was braiding red yarn into Alex's hair, so I yelled "Heeeey" from the bathroom area. When I got out there, he was sitting on the couch, so I sat next to him, and we chatted for a little bit. Then the rest of us did Secret Santa, and Eddie got me Coraline, woot. T
hen people started playing pong and we just sat there some more and I was really nervous and feeling awkward. :( Aaand so Kristy's brother was there and being his flirty drunk self and hugging me and putting his arm around me and I'm used to it, because that's how he always acts with all of us, so I just let him be a goofball without really thinking about it. I played a game of pong with Scott and then the Bradford people wanted him to get Ben Yeager to come over because they went to school with him. So then a bunch of random stuff happened and we all decided that we wanted to go out to the bars so I went to put my shoes on. Meanwhile, everyone had gone outside. When I got out there, I didn't see him out there, so I just figured that he'd gone already. When we got to the OP, he wasn't there, either, so I was kinda confused, but I was with all of my friends, and I wanted to have a good time so I just was dancing with all of them and whatever even though inside my head I was like OHNOWHATTHEHECKHAPPENEDWHYISN'THEHERE? :( So then all of my friends were like, where's scott? and I was like, I don't fucking know.
Then we left and Kristy took me to Mangia's but I was not in the mood to eat anything and then we got on the bus and I was feeling really sad and I started crying and didn't stop til waaay after we had gotten back to the house. Meanwhile, Alex had been texting him and he told her that he was giving his friend a ride home but that he felt like I'd been giving him mixed signals all night so he just left.
At this point, I felt so horrible and started crying even more because I really hadn't meant for him to think I was not interested in him, because I really really REALLY am. Then she told him that I didn't do it on purpose and that I really liked him, and he said something about how he'd had bad past experiences like this with other girls and that made me feel just awful because he's so adorable and I never meant to make him feel bad or make him compare this to his bad experiences. He's a nice guy, and I don't think that he should have had to feel that way, especially because of me, because I DO like him so much.
So then I was just in a really sad mood, and Kevin decided he wanted to cheer me up, so he grabbed me and kept trying to put me in the shower. At one point, he succeeded, and I got all wet so then Alex took me in my room and helped me change. Then Kevin still wants to cheer me up, so he grabs my legs and DRAGS me outside into the snow. I go back inside, and discover that the back of my shirt is RIPPED with a bunch of holes. Silly Kevin. Anyway, so then I went to bed.
The next morning, I still felt really bad even though Alex had texted Scott from my phone and told him that I did like him and didn't mean to make him feel bad. So I decided to text him and apologize because i never meant to make him think I didn't like him because I really do, and that I was just nervous and apparently thought it would be good to act like a total idiot. He texted back and said that it was ok, and that he felt bad for just leaving, and that he considered us even. Then he texted and said that he really liked spending time with me though, and that he wanted to hang out again. I replied that I liked spending time with him, too, and that I thought that we should definitely hang out some more. He said that he wanted to, and asked if I was going home for break soon, and I told him when I was leaving, but that I would really like to see him again before I left. He replied saying yes, definitely, and that he would check his schedule at work so that he would know when we could get together.
I seriously was so relieved. I had thought that I had messed everything up and made him think I didn't like him. So yesterday, he texted me and asked me how Friday sounded, and in my head I was like UGH FRIDAY IS NOT SOON ENOUGH but I told him that Friday sounded good. He didn't text me back, so I texted him again and asked him what he thought he would like to do on Friday and he asked if I would like to get dinner, and I said awesome idea, and he said great and then we proceeded to have another full-on texting conversation for like an hour and a half. It was awesome, and he's so freaking cute.
Soo anyway, I'm really excited for Friday and I just want it to be here NOOOWWWW so that I can see him again. But yeah. I have a lot of work to do, and I've wasted way too much time writing this long-ass post. I will be going now. :)
The reason I don't want to go home is because there's this really cute guy who I'm pretty interested in, and who I'm really hoping is pretty interested in me as well.
Here's how I know he is (I think):
So last time I updated, the last thing that happened was plans to go to a movie after break. Soooo we randomly texted throughout the week, and decided that we wanted to see Brothers. However, I found out pretty soon after that that Carmike is as useless as anything I've ever come across in my life, and wasn't getting any new movies in that week. Sooo, plan b? The Blind Side.
So Friday came, and I was feeling nervous, but not too nervous, which I think is a really good thing. When I'm nervous, I act like an idiot. *foreshadows* Anyway, I showered and did my hair and got dressed. He showed up, and Alex let him inside. When I went out to the living room, he was with another guy, and I was like, ohai. Then he introduced the guy as his room mate, and as our chauffeur because his car was in the shop. So we go to the theater and he get tickets (which I don't let myself be as uncomfortable about as I usually am when people buy things for me), and we go and sit down. Then we just talked for a little bit about really random stuff like commercials and songs and other stuff. Then the movie started, so we really didn't talk after that. It was kinda awkward because we were sitting between two sets of middle-aged ladies and it was just...awkward. I know it's redundant, but I really have no other word for it, haha. So after the movie ended, we left the theater, and I went to the bathroom, where I checked all of my texts, because my silly friends had texted me lots of things. Then Alex had left me a voicemail so I checked that when we were walking out of the theater, and then Alex called me and everyone at home was screaming and being silly. Sooo then Scott's room mate came back and picked us up, and we went inside where I was accosted with the task of going back out and getting cups for pong. Soo I took Alex's keys and Scott and we went outside. Alex's lock was frozen so I left Scott outside and ran to get someone else's keys. We ended up going in Kevin's car and got some cups. When we got back, Scott's room mate (who had mysteriously disappeared before) came back and came inside with us.
We played a few games of pong and then they went to go hang out with some friends. We hung around some more, then decided to go out to bars. I stayed behind with Alex and Chris for a little bit while Kevin, Kristy, and Ruth got the bus to town. When the three of us finally got to the bar, I got a drink and found Scott. I hung out with him for most of the time I was there, which was fun. Then the bar closed so we left. He and his friends were going to Perkins, and SOMEHOW, I ended up there with them. It was something that would have been so awkward and uncomfortable for me if it had been any other time, probably, but it wasn't. I had a good time, and his friends made me giggle. Anyway, after that, his room mate drove us back to the th, and we all came back in. Most of my friends were asleep (I think). His room mate suddenly decided that he'd left his wallet in the car and needed to go get it. So Scott and I were just kinda standing there talking. Then his friend came back in and was like, "I just thought you'd want to know...I found my wallet." and then he basically told Scott to hurry up and he left again. So Scott and I chatted for a few more minutes, and then...we started kissing. At one point, he pulled away and goes, "So, yeah, I kinda like you." So I go, "Well that's good, because I kinda like you, too." Then he asked me when he could see me again, and I told him that he could whenever he wanted. So then he asked if he could come back the next day, and I said sure. We kissed a little bit more and then he left.
The next day, I went to help out with the Festival of Trees to get some LAP hours in. Toward the end of that, he texted me and said that he had another interview the next morning and didn't want to be lame and leave here early, so he wasn't going to come that night. He asked me if I wanted to meet him at the women's basketball game, so I said sure.
On Sunday, I went to go shower to get ready to go to the game (which was at 1), but then my mom called and wanted to talk to me for like 20 minutes. At any rate, I ended up getting to the game around half time, which I felt bad about. At first, I couldn't see him, so I just stood at the side of the gym for a few minutes. Then I saw where he was and went to go sit with him. He was with a few friends, one of whom was very surly and the other of whom was very loud, haha. After the game ended, we went to the RC and ended up sitting there for like 2 hours with one of his friends. It was...amusing. So we finally left there, and he drove me back to the TH and came inside. We talked for a little bit about how Ruthie cut down a tree with a bread knife and other random stuff, but then I had to go to a stupid dinner for FB and I had to leave. :( So then I grabbed my coat and walked outside with him, where we met with Brianne and Hillary. Brianne proceeds to open the window and go to him, "Hi! Who are you? Are you Scott?!?" and then telling him that she needs to approve of him, blah blah blah. Meanwhile, it's SO obvious that I've told them about him, so I'm pretty embarrassed and hoping he doesn't think I'm a freak. So then I have to get in the stupid car, so he walks around the back of it with me and then he goes, "Will it embarrass you more if I gave you a kiss goodbye?" And in my head I'm like HELL NO SIR KISS ME PLEASE but in real life I said No not at all and then we kissed and it was so cute. Meanwhile, behind me, I hear Brianne yelling in the car because she saw us kissing. So then we both left, and I went to the dumb dinner.
So last week, on Monday, I think, he texted me and told me that he was really glad that we got to hang out over the weekend. I told him that I liked hanging out with him, too. So then Alex told me that I should invite him to the BV party because it was at our house and he used to be a BV'er. She hijacked my phone and sent him a message telling him that he should come. He texted back later and said that he needed to see when he worked, but that he'd really like to get together again. He texted a few days later and said that he would have to work on Friday and asked if I wanted to go out on Saturday. I told him that that was the day we were doing all of our Christmas stuff, but that he should come over. Then he texted back saying that that was great, and we actually had a conversation through texting without waiting days in between! hahah I was so excited, I'm such a dork. Anyway, so then we talked about Christmas trees and the BV party and how BV'ers are awesome.
On Saturday, I texted him and asked him if he was still thinking about coming over later. He said that he definitely was, and that he was going to the game. So the rest of the day just went along as usual, and then people started coming over for the Christmas festivities. At around 8:30, he texted me, saying that he was gonna be over in about 10 minutes. So he ended up getting here at the same time as Katie and I was braiding red yarn into Alex's hair, so I yelled "Heeeey" from the bathroom area. When I got out there, he was sitting on the couch, so I sat next to him, and we chatted for a little bit. Then the rest of us did Secret Santa, and Eddie got me Coraline, woot. T
hen people started playing pong and we just sat there some more and I was really nervous and feeling awkward. :( Aaand so Kristy's brother was there and being his flirty drunk self and hugging me and putting his arm around me and I'm used to it, because that's how he always acts with all of us, so I just let him be a goofball without really thinking about it. I played a game of pong with Scott and then the Bradford people wanted him to get Ben Yeager to come over because they went to school with him. So then a bunch of random stuff happened and we all decided that we wanted to go out to the bars so I went to put my shoes on. Meanwhile, everyone had gone outside. When I got out there, I didn't see him out there, so I just figured that he'd gone already. When we got to the OP, he wasn't there, either, so I was kinda confused, but I was with all of my friends, and I wanted to have a good time so I just was dancing with all of them and whatever even though inside my head I was like OHNOWHATTHEHECKHAPPENEDWHYISN'THEHERE? :( So then all of my friends were like, where's scott? and I was like, I don't fucking know.
Then we left and Kristy took me to Mangia's but I was not in the mood to eat anything and then we got on the bus and I was feeling really sad and I started crying and didn't stop til waaay after we had gotten back to the house. Meanwhile, Alex had been texting him and he told her that he was giving his friend a ride home but that he felt like I'd been giving him mixed signals all night so he just left.
At this point, I felt so horrible and started crying even more because I really hadn't meant for him to think I was not interested in him, because I really really REALLY am. Then she told him that I didn't do it on purpose and that I really liked him, and he said something about how he'd had bad past experiences like this with other girls and that made me feel just awful because he's so adorable and I never meant to make him feel bad or make him compare this to his bad experiences. He's a nice guy, and I don't think that he should have had to feel that way, especially because of me, because I DO like him so much.
So then I was just in a really sad mood, and Kevin decided he wanted to cheer me up, so he grabbed me and kept trying to put me in the shower. At one point, he succeeded, and I got all wet so then Alex took me in my room and helped me change. Then Kevin still wants to cheer me up, so he grabs my legs and DRAGS me outside into the snow. I go back inside, and discover that the back of my shirt is RIPPED with a bunch of holes. Silly Kevin. Anyway, so then I went to bed.
The next morning, I still felt really bad even though Alex had texted Scott from my phone and told him that I did like him and didn't mean to make him feel bad. So I decided to text him and apologize because i never meant to make him think I didn't like him because I really do, and that I was just nervous and apparently thought it would be good to act like a total idiot. He texted back and said that it was ok, and that he felt bad for just leaving, and that he considered us even. Then he texted and said that he really liked spending time with me though, and that he wanted to hang out again. I replied that I liked spending time with him, too, and that I thought that we should definitely hang out some more. He said that he wanted to, and asked if I was going home for break soon, and I told him when I was leaving, but that I would really like to see him again before I left. He replied saying yes, definitely, and that he would check his schedule at work so that he would know when we could get together.
I seriously was so relieved. I had thought that I had messed everything up and made him think I didn't like him. So yesterday, he texted me and asked me how Friday sounded, and in my head I was like UGH FRIDAY IS NOT SOON ENOUGH but I told him that Friday sounded good. He didn't text me back, so I texted him again and asked him what he thought he would like to do on Friday and he asked if I would like to get dinner, and I said awesome idea, and he said great and then we proceeded to have another full-on texting conversation for like an hour and a half. It was awesome, and he's so freaking cute.
Soo anyway, I'm really excited for Friday and I just want it to be here NOOOWWWW so that I can see him again. But yeah. I have a lot of work to do, and I've wasted way too much time writing this long-ass post. I will be going now. :)