Jive talking up a storm -- done, back to work
I had a chance to mess around online last christmas, being out of town at Tap's parents place. Haven't had much of an opportunity since then. I still don't have internet where I'm at for at least another year. But I do have a few hours every weekend while visiting my mom, give or take whatever comes up while I'm over there, and things always come up and time flies without much productive time online. And my time online is spent solely on business. There's little time for much else. I've been a bit behind, so I took the opportunity to visit during the week to catch up.
That's the who-really-cares part to explain why I'm a bit slow on recounting this. It's highly interesting to me. I'm fast where I need to be, but usually I seem slow about things. Some people like to eat to satisfy hunger, others like to savor every bite. There's lots of things I like to take slow, study them, practice, do it well rather than just doing it.
ANYWAY can i not write a short entry today for crying in a livejournal.
Last christmas I went back to the ohr forums. I really don't belong there anymore. Those who have said so, repeatedly, I've agreed with them for years, but for more honest reasons. Ever since the rpgboard-zantetsuken changed to the modern forum layout (03-04?), I've been good about staying away. It's just kind of weird to me cause I can go there once a year and we talk like it's 5 years ago without any time in between. But that's kind of online culture.
But not quite. Now for this entry to work it's magic...
I came back to play contest games, specifically JSH's. One of the entries was from Moogle1, (now Mogri?) which was the same game more or less that he snuck in the last time I was there for a halloween contest, like... 1 and a half years ago or so? Which wasn't even spooky themed, save for adding in like a candy-corn gfx stage at the end. Half-assed then, nothing changed now.
I rated the games, Moogle1 gets upset, explained myself knowing it won't work but wanting to be shown I'm wrong. I WANTED TO BE SHOWN so bad can you not realize this? I wanted to make you a hero, do you think I set myself up to be knocked down cause I hate you? Such a huge opportunity to rise up. Have some god damned fun like you idiots always champion.
Just using strong language for effect. I'm not really worked up. far from it. But it makes good copy for this kind of stuff. Now that we're back behind the cut...
He chose to discount rather than disprove, to take offense rather than be a man. And to top it all off, I made a comment about someone else seeing me play and wanting to rate all the games very poorly and stating what their reaction would be to that -- to then have the host of the contest confirm it, while at the same time him thinking he was denying it. And to explain that to him, would have been Moogle1 part 2. No thanks. Haven't checked since reading that one. But I'll explain it here, because you will understand. And it's really important.
The host thought I meant that they, as in him, would discount my friend's low votes because he was merely a player, not a game maker like them. He said he wouldn't, to then discount him anyway by saying something like this friend of mine probably has expectations set by graphically advanced first person shooters. Something like that. Not realizing that discount doesn't mean not to count the vote, it means not counting it as valid, as meaning anything.
This friend of mine plays pokemon. On gameboy. His favorite game. that's the 4 shades of black rpg expectations.
Talked to my brother recently, and he explains it like this: the desire to be a big fish in a small pond.
Had trouble understanding, and he explained further about how when certain people are given promotion opportunities, how they will decline them because they like being comfortable, a master above a small crowd of friends, stay in the same place for decades. Whereas if they accepted, they would have to compete with a larger field, learn new things, etc.
Do you realize why 'finishing a rpg' was made into a contest? Why the ohr revolves around contests? Put the pieces together. Does it matter to those who enter if they win or not? Why do they enter?
Also found this recently from Castillo, (guy who oversaw Command & Conquer development,) about how to make it in the industry, quote:
"Do not get an ego. We make games, not nuclear weapons. The first time you catch yourself saying something shitty about the gaming public, slap yourself until you realize you've become an arrogant ass, and then thank God and the world for letting you have a job where you get to make video games."
ding ding ding. when weak people call you things, realize they're just talking about themselves. Without fail. What a disappointment. I'm done. That's all. Catch you on the flipside. Don't you dare summon me back to the ohr. Whoever does it, I will come down on you like that fox demon in narotu. Been watching the shippoden series of it, pretty awesome.